More Than Twice| Open Wound #1✔

*Eighteen*

"He stepped down, trying not to look long at her, as if she were the sun, yet he saw her, like the sun, even without looking."-Anna Karenina, Tolstoy

Chapter eighteen. I’m sorry.

Jacob Williams

Finally. I finally reached my goal. I got her back. The fight I went through it felt like an endless storm that could end my life in seconds. But the thought of her close to me, envelop warmly in my arms, to have her tell me about everything that went through her mind, like we used to.

Her smiles and laughs that I was the cause of, it gave me the strength and courage I needed to keep on fighting for her. I felt utterly guilty for her shed tears, her fragile heart that I had continuously broken.

The truths I have ran away from and the lies I've told with ease made me lose her. I had been given a second chance to prove to her that my feelings are real and genuine, completely authentic.

Not something forged by a game, I was a teenage boy that found pleasure in annoying her, because only when she was angry, did she gave me the time of day.

It was only when I began to feel actual, physical pain every time she left the room that it finally dawned on me: I was in love, for the first time in my life. I knew it was hopeless, but that didn't matter to me. And it's not that I want to have her. All I want is to deserve her. For her to tell me what to do. Show me how to behave. And I would do anything she says.

I was swallowed up in an abyss of love in an instant. Stared at her for hours but she never noticed. She may think she fell for me first, but I can prove I was the one that fell head over heels for her at first sight.

I was an impulsive kid, always suspicious of everything and everyone around me, that day I walked out fuming, my nine year old self was almost knocked of his feet when I saw a girl in a black shirt which was obviously not her size and blue basketball shorts. Her hair was pulled in a messy bun and she played so seriously and intently.

I was mesmerized by her. She was not self conscious at all and it surprised me. I was eventually caught and her attitude made me more drawn to her even more.

We had reached her house hours ago but I couldn't sleep. We sealed our goodnight with a heated kiss that was thankfully unseen by her parents and siblings.

I was astonished at how she felt under my every touch so real and the rest of her turned to smoke. I have missed her terribly.

Rebecca has no idea I overheard her and her friend. I could use that to my own advantage and make her come clean. I cannot believe I was blinded by their false talks on friendship.

I honestly only trusted Jace and Kevin. Besides that the others were friends of friends.

I wonder how they would react when they know I had found out about their plans.

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I was woken up from the sound of the alarm. I had forgotten about that. The workshop at Riley high had completed so there was no reason for me to be awake at this hour. Other than seeing Hannah's morning self of course.

I was only in a pair of sweats so I pulled it off then went for a shower. I dried myself completely after I ambled out then pulled on white joggers and a white shirt then prowled down the stairs. The only one present were the coach and the Mrs.