Forgotten ( Cameron Dallas )

chapter 28

Cleo's P.O.V

cameron had left this awful house to go get some groceries for our trip, we are thinking of moving to Florida, New York maybe? so we need a few things for our way there.
I have lots of money saved from my mom, and family members, and from my dads passing.
I've never seen my mom since she got arrested and was being a lunatic when the officers were taking her away.
maybe I should go see her before me and cameron head off.
who knew love was this powerful, it could mean something to you, when it does, you cherish it, and it treats you right.
or you disagree with its opinion and avoid the facts, and it does terrible things.
like break you and the person who loves you apart.
which is something you don't want to happen if that person is basically your backbone.
discontinuing the thoughts I lagged packing my bag as for I was thinking about the things I shouldn't, like why this all happened. in my mind it's a complete blur, like on those foggy days that everyone hates but I specifically love.
I shook my head and heard my door open, I know the sound completely well for it being always shut and for someone to get in, they have to open it, DUH, obviously, it's a door.
I looked up and saw Nashs person crying terribly.
I stood up and faced his figure as I crossed my forearms between Eachother and looked at him.
he sniffed and cried right in my doorway, probably wanting me to say something, apologize even though I'm not the one to be doing that.
" you pitiful ass " I said throwing a pillow at him.
he picked the pillow back up and directed at me again, like it was a boomerang.
I pushed it back behind me forcefully and looked at him, telling him basically with my furious eyes, that I'm not in the mood for a flirty ordeal.
" what do you want me to do " he said shrugging his shoulders and looking at me.
there's nothing he can do.
sadly he tore our beautiful friendship apart.
I would've loved to stay here with him, but my presence is unknown to this house. like when I first came here, stepped in this house. it feels basically as if I don't belong here anymore, all of my beautiful memories, sitting in the trash can in my room, the bathroom, every waste can in this house.
thrown away, and only I can stay to recover them.
my heart as like his has been torn to pieces.
as much as I try to crack a smile all I can do is that actually.
nothing more.
I'm emotionless.
" there's nothing you can do, I don't feel welcome anymore " I said based off of my thoughts.
" I'm sorry, i overthought everything, please stay, you and cameron " he said tearing up.
I walked over to him and put my hand and cupped his elbow with it.
I did the same for my other hand and I looked at him in the eye.
" I will miss you so much " I said to him.
I embraced him and my furiousness was lifted away, like some sort of angel had lifted it off from upon me.
I pulled away and wiped the tear out from under his eye.
" you will be fine nash. there's nothing to miss of me " I said smiling.
" there's a lot " he said as I was walking away.
" what? " I asked curiously turning around.
" your beautiful you aren't like those other girls in the magazines, for the sparkle in your eye, your beautiful. for the ability for making me smile at all time low moments, beauty is only skin deep, but understand that there's beauty all around you, it's indescribable on how much actually. I never found beauty in longing for the impossible, but when I least tried, I stumbled upon you. and that was all I needed. beauty is being the best possible version of yourself, which is what you do. beauty isn't about having a pretty face, it's about having a beautiful mind, a beautiful heart, and a beautiful soul. which is exactly what you have. I can't describe my feelings for you, but there is one word that can do it for me. infinite. I will never stop loving you, KF you leave me or not, I will not move on, you will always be in my heart, and I want you to know that. " he said afterwards crying.
" thank you nash. but I must leave " I said closing the door in his face slowly.
after that moment, boy did I regret every choise I made to do this.
it's my fault, thus all.
for not noticing his affection for me..
I just lost my bestfriend, and my boyfriend lost his too.
now I have to live my own life, which without nash?
physically,
and mentally,
impossible.
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