February 2014
The ever familiar sound coming from the co-sleeper that was attached to the king sized bed was enough to wake Rebecca from the quick 45 minute nap she was able to get in between cries.
"Do you need me to get her?" Her mother, Annette's head poked into the bedroom as Rebecca sat up in the middle of the bed
"No, I've got her mom go to bed.." she said quietly as she reached into the cot and grabbed the fussy newborn carefully in her arms
"You know where I am" Annette said before shutting the door
Annette had been staying with her daughter in her apartment in Florida for the last few days and honestly Rebecca was extremely thankful for it.
"We're having quite the night tonight aren't we?" Rebecca asked as she looked down at the baby in her arms "shh.. it's okay.. Mommy's got you.." she said as she gently swayed from side to side before the baby quickly latched and began eating eagerly "My Little Remi.." she said as she closed her eyes and laid back against the pillows.
One week ago.. January 27th 2014, that's when everything changed for Rebecca and if you'd asked her she would say she didn't regret a single decision that was made to get her to that point. Remington or Remi as Rebecca calls her was the product of a one time fling, a cut loose, alcohol filled night at the first party she'd ever attended over in the states.
Finding out she was pregnant was the shock of a life time for Rebecca, she'd been on birth control since she was a teenager and it never failed her but for some reason that time it did.
"She was determined from the start" Rebecca would say "She broke down barriers from day one" she would joke with friends.
She found out she was pregnant in the middle of August 2013, after trying to manage through multiple training sessions at the performance center with the overbearing nausea and knowing in her heart that it wasn't just the stomach flu, she took the test (more like 4) in the PC bathroom during a break between strength training and promo class and they all showed up positive very quickly
A trip to the Emergency Room confirmed it with a blood test, she was carrying a child from a one night stand. She never looked at the baby inside her as a mistake or unwanted, she was very much loved and wanted from the second the two pink lines showed up on the first test.
Her due date was supposed to be February 14th 2014, Valentine's day.. but being as headstrong as ever the little girl came earlier than expected on January 27th
Rebecca was convinced that the little girl she was currently holding was put in her life to keep her strong through the hard times, to do great things in this world..
"Let's try to let Mommy get more than 45 minutes of sleep please.." she said as she carefully laid the sleeping newborn back in the cot, turning out the light on her bedside table and settling into the bed.
20 minutes later, another cry rang out and she turned on the light once more
"Mom!" She called out and Annette quickly made her way in a few moments later "I don't know what to do.." she cried "I haven't gotten any sleep in a week.." tears now fell
"Oh.. shh.." Annette said as she walked over to the bed "Let me see her.." she said taking the baby from her daughter "You just gotta stay calm.." she said as she walked around the room
"What if I'm not meant to do this?" She questioned
"You hush now.. all new mothers go through this.. it's a learning game, you're learning her and she's learning you.."
"You mean one day I'm just gonna know what to do?" She questioned with a smile
"No.." Annette shook her head with a smile
