The Essence Of Love

Set It Off

"I can't believe you Amira, your lucky we can't beat your ass right now!" Elle says.

"Im sorry, I was just desperate for the money!"

"Girl whatever!"

"Essence, please say something." Amira begs.

I finally come back to earth as they both stare at me sympathetically.

"I'm gonna set this mother fucker off. I'm tired of letting these niggas run all over me." I walk to the door but Elle grabs my hand.

"Essence,what are you gonna do, I can bail you out but I need to know now." She asks sincerely, knowing how crazy I can get.

"I'm—im so sorry Ess,  I— I'm really struggling and I needed the money, I—"

"Just stop Mira,I don't even care at this point, I'm about to get the fuck out of this city. I'm done."

"Come on,  I'll take you to get your stuff, but your  not gonna do anything crazy like with Kaheem are you?" Elle asks as we walk out to her car, leaving Amira looking stupid.

"I'm contemplating between Angela Bassett in Waiting To Exhale or Left Eye. You know, do I wanna burn down the house or burn up all the cars, or maybe burn the whole party down."

"Ok you Pyro." She laughs as we back out of the driveway.

"He needs to pay for this shit Elle! All three of these trifling niggas do!"

"Or you can just leave town and ghost him, you know he's crazy, he might try to kill you if you burn shit down. You know I'm totally with you on revenge, but you have to remember who he is."

"His ass is too obsessed with me to hurt me, and a little fire damage ain't shit to his pockets. He has bomb ass insurance." I smirk.

"Oh my gosh Ess." She laughs as she shakes her head.

"I'm so serious, this is what I get for moving so fast with these niggas, my ass should be in my own apartment, trying to find mama ,not up under some nigga, I really haven't even taken the time to figure out what I want in life all these months , it's like I said fuck all my goals and my aspirations, I've let him consume so much of my mind and my energy that I don't even know who I am anymore."

"Mmm, that's deep boo."

"So here's the plan." I start

A couple of hours later...

"So you really ain't gonna talk to me huh?"

I decided to give his ass the silent treatment and it's eating his ass up. He tried to use sex and gifts earlier while we were getting ready as usual but I finally set my boundaries and I was so proud of myself. Fuck him, all feelings are out the window at this point for my sanity and I can't turn back. I have to take my life back.

"I hope you was listening to me, I didn't cheat on you, I was just testing her to see if she would really betray you like that, so whatever you tryna plan in yo lil head you can dead that shit, we gon work this shit out. You know I would never fuck around on you baby."

This nigga really thinks that I'm stupid enough to fall for that and it's making me more angry by the second. I continue ignoring him and turn the volume up as Rules by Doja Cat starts playing at the perfect time.

"Play with my pussy but don't play with my emotions, nigga." I quote Doja and he sucks his teeth.

We pull up to the gate of the massive mansion where the party is being held, he puts a code in and the gate opens, we pull in and he parks.