"Hindi ko nga kasi siya nagustuhan, Sab! Elementary pa kami n'un, 'no. Saka 'di ko na siya type since then," Alice rolled her eyes to me. I just laughed nervously dahil alam kong naiinis na sa akin ang best friend ko.
"Ang kulit mo kasi, Sab. Kung gusto mo si Nathan, patulan mo na!" sabi pa ni Ella sa akin.
I just looked at my phone, thinking if I would reply to Nathan's messages again. I already know him since time immemorial kahit hindi ko siya schoolmate dahil nga nakwento na siya sa amin ni Alice. It's not a big deal for her na nagustuhan siya ni Nathan dahil nga elementary pa sila nun, at wala siyang hilig sa lalaki. She even considers herself as asexual.
I then decided to reply to his messages again after my best friends' consent. I know this sounds funny dahil baka hindi naman landi ang habol nito ni Nathan, pero nag-aassume ako. I just know that there's something with his messages. I don't know. I'll just go with the flow.
"Alam mo bang naging sila ni Monica? 'Yung kaklase namin nito ni Ella," Alice mentioned. I furrowed my eyebrows and put my phone down to pay attention to what Alice just said.
"Ang hilig naman niya sa taga-Remington! Wala bang maganda sa school nila," I blurted out.
"Ay wow, gusto ka agad?" natatawang tanong ni Ella. I just pouted my lips.
"Well, matagal naman na ata silang wala, last year pa," Alice continued, ignoring the little fight I had with Ella. I just shrugged and got my phone again. Matagal na pala eh.
"Paano nga ulit nag-start magmessage 'yan sa'yo?" Ella asked. Hindi niya naabutan 'yung pagkwento ko sa part na 'yon dahil late siyang dumating dito sa cafeteria.
"Well, nakita niya raw ako sa terminal. Pagkauwi ko, may message na siya sa akin sa facebook. Ang sabi, "parang nakita kita". Ano 'yon? Nakita ko rin naman siya, pero hindi ko siya minessage. 'Di ba? Ang landi," I said continuously. Ella just laughed and said,
"Okay na 'yan. Galingan mo, para magkajowa ka na."
A month has passed since Nathan and I started talking in socmed. We would usually spend the whole night talking about things -- from topics about ourselves, the mysteries of sciences, to random topics you wouldn't know you would talk about with other person. Minsan ay hindi pa namin mamamalayan na madaling araw na. Tulad ngayon.
"Alam mo, Sab, kapag naging successful ako sa buhay, kapag engineer na ako, magpapagawa ako ng bahay. Tapos 'yung CR 'yung pinakamaganda, alam mo kung bakit?" We were on voice call.
"Kasi lagi kang natatae?" I asked and laughed. I heard his laugh at the other line. I smiled. I always love his laugh. It's contagious.
"Ang galing naman, kilalang kilala mo na ako, 'no? Halos isang buwan pa lang tayo nag-uusap, ah," he answered. I sighed a little. Oo nga, isang buwan na.
"Oo nga eh, tapos hindi pa kita nakikita personally? Lugi naman ako n'on?" I said. I faked a laugh so that it wouldn't be that awkward.
"Bakit mo naman ako gusto makita nang personal, Sab? Gusto mo na ba ako?" he asked. I was taken aback with that. Hindi ako nakapagsalita agad. I felt my heartbeat, it was so fast.
"Uy, Sab! Joke lang, ito naman," bawi niya agad. "Kapal naman nito, hindi kita gusto, 'no," I answered back.
"Good 'yan. Paasa kasi ako, Sab," he chuckled and ended the call.
I closed my eyes in frustration and hugged my pillow, thinking of what I am feeling right now. I rolled on my bed and looked at the digital clock on the side table beside my bed. It's already 2 am and I still have 7 am class. Before falling into sleep, one thought has come into my mind: paasa nga.
