Fall Part 1: Let Him Go

Best Friend Quarrel

Where the hell is he? I waited here for almost one hour and he is still out of sight. I kept calling him but he is out of reach. It's already six in the evening and I am totally in trouble to my Grandma. Ten minutes more Chanel, increase your patience.

After the long wait, I saw him walking to my direction but wait, he was talking to someone, and I'm afraid it's Vanessa. After they said their goodbyes, James immediately went to the car and I followed him to the passenger's seat.

"Did you see that? I asked her out and we talked, like, just for one day. I can't believe it." I know that face, he was happy. He was telling me about their romantic date, I'm not even listening. God, he is so dense. Can't he feel that I am so pissed off?

"Hey dude, are you listening? Aren't you happy for me?" Happy? You left me waiting there for 2 hours without any assurance if you will show up, I wanted to say but I restrain myself from talking instead. I kept myself busy looking outside the You are almost there Chanel. He stopped the car in front of our house. I want to go out but the door is still lock. I look at him giving the 'what are you waiting for?' look.

"You are not going out until you tell me the reason why you're angry? Are you jealous of Vanessa?" he gave me a serious look. Is he serious? Me, jealous of Vanessa? What for?

"Just open this damn car James" I told him sounding pissed. Don't force me to start this argument James, you'll regret it.

"I will only open the door if you tell me" he really wants to know?

"Fine, you want to know? I hate you. I waited for 2 hours James without knowing if you'll show up. And I find you talking to the most popular girl in school. I called you a hundred times for God sake but you never picked up, not once. You should've text me or told me that you are going out with that girl so I will not look like a fool waiting for my best friend who came from his romantic date. And do you know the real reason why I am angry? I am so worried and miserable of what might happened to you while you are very happy dating with your ideal girl. Now, can you open the door?" he opened the door without saying a word. I'm not done yet.

"One thing, I am not jealous of Vanessa dude, you are just my friend after all" I walk out from the car and hurriedly went inside. I did not even realize the tears falling from my precious eyes.

"Chanel, is that you?" she was in the kitchen. "What happened? Why are you crying? Did someone hurt you? " I'm not in a mood answering her question.

"I'm fine Grandma, I just need some rest." I went straight to my room.

"What about your dinner?"

"I ate my dinner with James." damn, I lied again to her. "Sorry Grandma" I whisper to myself.

"Dude" calling.......

I turned my phone off. I am not in mood talking to you James. We always fight but now is different. It is the first time he ditch me just because of a girl. I know time will come that he would find someone more special than me. And I am afraid of that time to come. We shared memories for three years and we never care for anyone just us. But now, I think I need to accept the fact that I am not the only person in his life. Someone is soon to replace me and that someone is better that who I am. I depend my life to him so much, I think it's time to have space and be apart. Help me God, cause I don't know what to do without a best friend by my side.