Yup, I am the Villain (COMPLETED)

Yup #17

Yup #17
Crashing Minds

Napa-ungol ako nang madaplisan ako ng kutsilyo sa kaliwa kong braso. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang uunahin ko dahil panay ang sugod sa akin ng mga kalalakihang may dalang nakamamatay na armas.

I tried my best to shoo way the pain and continued to fight despite of my situation. May tumatakbong lalaki papalapit sa akin, mayroong inaatake ako mula sa aking likod at mayroon ding sumusubok sa aking tagiliran. I punched the man in front of me, kicked the one beside me and tried to smash the man behind. Wala na akong ibang maisip kung hindi ang lumaban at hilingin na matapos ang eksenang ito.

Cause I'm still here at the 'actual scene', one of my most hated parts of my life. One of the scenes I loathed the most. I am so hurt. Physically and emotionally.

But since I am the gang leader, kahit na nasa eksena lang ako, gusto kong ibigay ang buong lakas ko para matalo ang gang na kalaban namin. The gang is one of the reasons why I want to continue fighting and battling inside this fucked up story. I want this story to end well, without destroying my gang. My beloved gang.

Nakita ko sa di kalayuan si Dagger na sunod-sunod ang pagtapon ng mga suntok sa kalaban. He's really serious and mad. So am I.

Hindi ko maiwasan makaramdam ng kirot sa puso ko habang inaaalala ang mga ginawa ni Dagger para kay Esmeray. I thought that he won't care that much after the scene, but he stayed in the hospital, took care of Esmeray. Kahit alam naman niyang magaling na ito sa susunod na eskena. Hindi naman niya sinabing gusto niya ako o kung may nararamdaman siya sa akin kahit kaunti. It is very unclear! And I am so fucked up to feel that he betrayed me just because of that!

Of course, gusto niya si Esmeray kahit nasa behind the actual scene kami! Siya naman talaga ang gusto ni Dagger kahit sa actual scene! Kahit saan, siya lagi! And I am really jealous! I don't know why! This is frustrating me! I think I'm falling so hard again! At hindi ako sumusuko sa pag-asang, baka gusto niya rin ako kahit papano. I need to confront him. He's really mysterious! I want to know kung meron ba akong chance. Dahil kung meron, I won't waste it and I'll do my best.

Due to frustration and madness, I kicked the man in front of me hardly. I punched those who tried to attack me from my side and I did my best to finish them all.

Tila bumabaha na ng dugo sa loob ng bodegang ginawa naming arena. Ang ilan ay wala ng malay at karamihan ay naghihingalo na. Marami ang nakabulagta at kakaunti na lang ang patuloy na lumalalaban. Good thing, the Rebel Gang dominated the ones who are still fighting.

Ilang minuto pa ng marahas at madugong labanan, tumigil din ito. As well as the sensation that released my body. Back to normal na ulit kaming lahat.

I felt so tired and weak. I want to rest now, but because of my rage coating my heart, I walked out of the room without congratulating my members. Helga can handle the guys. As well as Leocadia and Itzel. They can do it without me. One more thing, Dagger is there. Sila na ang makikipag-negotiate sa mga kalaban. This is a FRIENDLY battle after all. They can manage that without me. And I know, I'm being unprofessional and immature.

"Hecate!" Helga called me but I didn't look back.

Ganito ang epekto sa'kin ni Dagger. Simpleng pag-aalaga lang ang ginawa niya para kay Esmeray pero halos ikahimatay ko sa frustration at galit.

Galit akong naglakad, nag-iisip kung lilipat na ba ang pahina para hindi na ako tumawag pa ng masasakayan pauwi sa'min. Parang mas gusto kong maging kontrolado ngayon. Sobrang dilim na sa paligid at nahihilo na ako.