Caged Bird - BNHA Band AU

[13]

-feel free to listen to the music while you read-

-trigger warning-

The silence was tense, Kirishima had met up with Shinso after breakfast, but he still couldn't believe the insomniacs words. "I swear Kirishima, midoriya said he wanted to throw himself off a building," the boy whispered. Kirishima nodded slowly, still unable to process the information completely. "You're telling me that... Izuku midoriya, a literal ray of sunshine.... is suicidal?" Kirishima's breath got caught in his throat at the purple haired males response. "I still feel guilty for using my quirk, but after you told me about his family life, I wanted to reassure myself he was actually happy... but he wasn't..." shinso's voice trailed off, "the only reason I told you was because I thought I could trust you, please don't tell anyone else, I already feel like I violated his privacy, he can't find out, I don't want him to hate me-" "calm down Shinso, I won't tell anyone, you need to breath."

Kirishima's thoughts had been preoccupied all day, only half registering things the others would say to him. He only now noticed the small wavers and falters in Izuku's voice and smile, the red head noticed the way midoriya would jump and flinch at the smallest things, it was as if he expected someone to lash out at him at any given moment. Kirishima wanted to. No. He needed to help Izuku, the greenette has been through a lot, and he wanted to help him, even when knowing that it would take a lot of time to build up trust and a true bond of friendship, he wasn't willing to give up.

Izuku had been followed around by Kirishima most of the day, he didn't mind at all though, he was glad Kiri wanted to hang out with him, he was willingly hanging around the greenette. "You've been oddly sociable today kiri, what's up?" Izuku asked cheerfully, "I just wanna bond more with my new bud!" Kirishima replied, hanging off the shorter boys shoulder. Izuku hesitated, the red head had called him 'bud' wasn't that another word for friend, were they friends now! Izuku smiled happily, "I'm glad you see me as a friend now!" This got a gasp out of Kirishima, "you didn't think we were friends before, bro, as soon as you walked through the doors of the apartment we were friends!?" Kirishima gave a goofy grin, showing his pointy teeth. "O-oh, really?" Izuku asked bashfully, "of course mido!" Izuku nodded, saying his farewell to the rock quirked boy before venturing back to his room. He recently wrote a song, it wasn't as new as the song he'd written when Shinso talked to him, but he still enjoyed writing it.

He didn't want to sing the whole song, so he settled on the chorus and his favourite parts. "I don't mean to mislead you I promise, so uncomfortable being dishonest, and I think I just realised I'd say anything, to come off a little more interesting, that's why I tell, lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lies~, lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lies~, lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lies~, lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lie lies~" a small smile found its way onto the teenagers face, "I'll be happy when I have success, is that my way to admit I'm depressed, my therapy's retail, if it's on sale, I pay the price and call that happiness ah-ah, and I think I just realised I'd say anything, to keep hiding the pain I've been burying," Izuku stopped, he heard hushed whispers from the hall. He was worried that someone had overheard him, which wouldn't be a very unlikely possibility.

He stood up, and without making a sound, crept to his door. "-didn't think you were right!" A harsh whisper was heard, but he couldn't quite tell who it was from, "I've already talked to you about it," a slightly calmer voice replied, he immediately thought it was either Shinso or Todoroki, but wasn't sure on the other person. "Should we talk to him about it?" The other voice asked, calm enough to label it as Kirishima's, "we can if you want-" Izuku was sick of listen to them talk about him, "talk to me about what?" Izuku asked, slightly harsher than he had meant it. "Sugar, sorry, that sounded meaner than I wished it would, what would you like to talk to me about?" Izuku asked, rubbing the back of his neck sheepishly, slightly picking at the scans on his neck. "O-oh, well... um... you see-  we just wanted to ask..." Kirishima trailed off awkwardly, he was at a complete loss of words. "We wanted to talk about how you're feeling, and don't lie to me this time," Shinso had a commanding tone to his voice, somehow glaring reassuringly at the younger boy. "O-ok, but not out here," Izuku begrudgingly replied, opening his door for the other two teens to enter.