Caged Bird - BNHA Band AU

[18]

-feel free to listen to the music while you read-

"Just because some hot shot music company wants us doesn't mean you need to stress you fucking nerd, just enjoy yourself for fuck sake!" Bakugo snapped, looking at the smaller boy who still stood by the door. "Yeah, your right, just calm down Izuku..."he spoke to himself, taking a deep breath, letting it out in one go, "let's do this!" He exclaimed happily. He politely took the mic from Todoroki and stood in front of the group, "what are we singing?". Kaminari looked up from his phone, looking at the greenette for a few seconds before looking back down. "What about this? Shinso wrote it with the help of Todoroki, so it's probably edgy," Kaminari shoved the phone in Izuku's face, watching as the boy flinched back, taking the phone and holding it at a safe distance.

"I'll need time to get the rhythm and learn the lyrics, but it'll work!" He said, tapping his foot anxiously, he was about to start scratching at his neck before feeling the bandage and instantly lowering his hand with a sheepish grin, dismissing the cautious gaze from most of the group. He read the lyrics, he found them interesting, making him wonder wether it was written out of experience. The song was titled '911' and it seemed like a fun song to sing, so he was starting to feel pumped about it, though he couldn't quite quench the anxiety that rested in the back of his mind. He never could.

It had been about two hours of rehearsing the song, Izuku had picked up the lyrics rather fast, adjusting his voice to the rhythm in an attempt to make it sound somewhat decent. "I think we got it down pat!" Kirishima shouted happily, slinging his arm around midoriyas shoulder, "how low can your voice go?" He asked, poking at Izuku's cheeks. "Uh... I'm not sure," the boy replied, "let's get this over with," Bakugo grumbled, eyeing off Shinso as he stood behind his electronic instrument. "Ok then..." Izuku mumbled, he tapped his foot to the start that Kaminari had come up with before they'd started.

"Don't think I can take it~
With every drama a piece of me dies,
like some kind of sadist~
I think that he likes to see the pain in my eyes,
He knows that I'm love sick~
He kissed me and promised I would be alright
We both know it's bullshit~
The longer I'm with him the less I'm alive." Izuku hated that he'd have to swear, but he'd risk swearing to get taken in bye WKMI, not just for himself, but for his friends aswell. Could he call them band mates now?

"Doctors on the other line cause he's not coming home tonight and I just took my very last pill~
Need something to numb the pain, demons knocking on my brain, I think their coming in for the kill~"

"Nine one wanna need some, while my baby plays me like a game I'm not having fun~ nine one want to leave he's Why my heart is always aching and I gotta be done 'cause~
I, I, I gotta lose my guy
Oh I, I'm, I'm gonna lose my mind"

"You must think that I'm crazy~
Well he does too so I guess that makes three?
Need someone to save me I'd really appreciate if you'd intervene~"

"Doctors on the other line cause he's not coming home tonight can't seem to find my bottle of pills~
Swear to god I'm not insane,
The voices only say his name when I'm starting to think that they're real~"

"Nine one wanna need some~
Why my baby plays me like a game I'm not having fun~
Nine one want to leave him, he's why my heart is always aching and I gotta be done cause~
I, I, I gotta lose my guy~
Oh I, I'm, I'm gonna lose my mind~"

"Need someone~,
Why my baby plays me like a game
I'm not having fun not having fun~
Nine one want to leave him
Why my heart is always aching
And I gotta be done cause gotta be, gotta be done~
I, I, I gotta lose my guy I, I~
Oh I, I'm, I'm gonna lose my mind
I'm gonna lose my mind~"

Izuku took a deep breath, for some reason, the songs lyrics had really taken a toll on his thoughts. It's pretty much describing what he'd felt when he was living with his dad on those drunk days, even when it was calmer than usual. It was always the calmer days when he felt his worst, it was quiet. Too quiet. His thoughts had a clear place in his mind on these days, and he couldn't get rid of them with the arguing. It was also the days Hisashi would return home after getting drunk, days like that day.

"Wow, that was actually really good," Shinso complemented, tapping Izuku on the shoulder with a little too much force for the smaller teen to handle. "Y-yeah, it was great," he replied in his sweet tone. He was slightly scared that his voice would be permanently that deep, so that's one thing to be happy about. "I'll shoot WKMI an email, send them the song along with it," Kaminari stood up from his piano, flicking a switch before folding it up and putting it back in its original spot inside the cupboard. "Sounds good," Todoroki responded, "as long as it isn't rivers I'm fine with it." Everyone nodded in agreement, they all respect Todoroki in one way or another, so they make sure he, along with everyone else in the group, feel comfortable with any decision made. But Izuku still had doubts that, numerous time had already occurred, they'd make decisions without his opinion. He wanted to trust them, he wanted to be able to follow along with them with a bright smile, but he had doubts that would take time to get over. He'd just have to hope no one notices.