Caged Bird - BNHA Band AU

[15]

-feel free to listen to the music while you read-

-trigger warning-

"Well, after the day Hisashi came home drunk and... did that to me, my mental state kinda, you know... plummeted, I got worse as time passed, though I have been trying to get better!" Izuku dishes out the last part, hoping it would reassure his roommates, who looked sympathetic. Though three were not big on emotions, Kirishima was in tears, "that was manly to tell us mido," Todoroki nodded, "I too, am glad you trusted us enough to tell us." Bakugo huffed, "well that prick shouldn't be a problem anymore, you live an hour away!" He stood up from the wall he was leaning on. "That also helps to explain your fucking ridiculously plain room," he huffed, looking at the creamy white walls, "it hurts to look at, I'm going back to the music room we'll deal with this monstrosity tomorrow!" Bakugo stomped out, slamming the door as he left, "Dont worry about him, that's his way of showing he cares, at least somewhat..." Shinso trailed off, looking at the gloomy winged boy in front of him.

Izuku gave a weak smile, followed by a dry laugh, "I guess..." Izuku avoided eye contact, directing his attention to the floor instead of the other three boys. "This doesn't change our relationship right, oh god I shouldn't have told you, I'm sorry!" Izuku rushed out, flapping his arms around in a futile attempt to dismiss the situation. "Don't worry, it's not changing anything, if it helps, I've suffered from low self esteem, usually it ended in self harm, there was no particular reason for me to hurt myself... it just helped with my thoughts, thought these idiots helped me through it," Shinso crossed his arms, his eyes showed signs of disappointment, he was ashamed of himself for those sort of actions. "You're not hurting yourself... are you?" He asked, raising a suspicious eyebrow at the smaller boy in front of him.

Kirishima stood up in a defensive stance, "it's not very manly to ask someone straight up if they self harm, he'll tell us if he does when he wants to, it's not even a certainty." Kirishima folded his arms over his chest, "we didn't pry into your bad habits!" He scolded as if he were a mother talking to her child. "It's better to know sooner rather than later, especially if it's too late-" "guys, I'm not hurting myself, can everyone calm down, all this yelling hurts my head." Shinso and Kirishima looked down at the soft carpet, "sorry," they both apologised in unison. Todoroki nodded, "right, I'm gonna make soba, would anyone else want some?" Kirishima jumped up and down, nodding his head enthusiastically, "could I have some aswell?" Shinso asked sheepishly, rubbing the back of his neck, a smirk resting on his face. "Midoriya, would you like some aswell?" Izuku looked up at the bi coloured boy, "yes please!" He said with a smile.

From now on, he was gonna do everything in his power to get better, he was going to better with the help of his new friends, "can't wait!" He smiled brighter, leaving his room engaged in a conversation with Kirishima. The two excited teens decided to watch a movie, "we should watch No. 7, wait no, what about Unravel?" Izuku giggled, "what about both?" Kirishima squealed like a very manly little girl, running off to get the movies. 'I will get better, and before I know it, I won't need to feel guilty about lying to them, since it won't be a lie!' He thought, a new motivation driving him to better his mental health. He had a reason other than himself to do this, he now had friends.