The fangirl assistant (Not finished)

Chapter 8 - Little lies

I put on my headphones and left the studio thinking I need a little time for myself to find peace, maybe listening to music could help me process whatever feelings I have and make me escape from the madness and trouble for a bit. As I hummed along to some Taylor Swift I decided to stop by a coffee shop, after all of the stress and emotions that overwhelmed me today I didn't feel like finishing my homework so maybe I would focus better if I was in a different environment for a change. I bought myself a frappe, sat down in a corner booth and put out my laptop from my bag to get my shit done. I only had to send in the final tests to get my online high school diploma once and for all, I had worked hard so that I could finish everything before getting the opportunity of going on tour, I used so much of my free time that I even managed to finish one year early. Sitting down at my computer in my favorite café, I felt a heightened sense of focus and determination, knowing these tests are a crucial step towards graduation, so now that I'm done I'm experiencing a mix of anticipation, tension, and relief.

I still didn't know what I wanted to do after... I don't know how long I'll keep working for the band' management but as much as I love them and everything that comes with this job, I know I want to do more, I want to meet people, talk music, art, aspirations... maybe as I travel I will be able to persue it. Being close to the creative process but not directly involved as an artist sometimes stirs feelings of longing and self-doubt, especially when I can't even enjoy being a rockstar's girlfriend.

When I got home I decided I should tidy up a bit to welcome Maya in a better manner, not that the apartment was messy or dirty, but it could use some cleaning after my busy week. I grabbed Maya's suitcase that Taylor dropped off earlier and put it inside of the tiny guest room next to her bed. I changed the sheets of the bed and lighted one of the scented candles Edgar and I bought last night, smelling blooming roses while I did some dusting and mopping. I looked at the time and it was already five pm, that explains why I feel tired, I had been active nonstop basically all day. For a moment I thought about the guys, how much I wish I could be with them but I guess it's fine, I still spend a lot of time with them and soon I'll basically live with them for the next semester.

I sighed and headed to the bathroom so I could wash away my thoughts, if that was possible. I took my time and did my long everything shower routine, if you could call it that. Once I was finished I put on some comfortable underwear, then looked through my closet and saw one of Eddie's sweatshirt, he may have left it here by accident, I don't know why but I put it on and head to the living to watch some TV while I wait for him and Maya to come home. I was scrolling through Instagram and noticed Maya had posted a new story so I clicked on it. It was a beautiful sunset and then the camera turned to face Edgar who had a massive smile. My God, his smile, I am such a sucker for Edgar Hayes. I sighed and just locked my phone. How I wish I was with them, how I wish I could go do normal things with the guy I like.

Edgar's POV

"I'm so glad you're here." I told Maya. We were on our way back to Gracie's apartment. "And I am so happy that I get to visit my annoying little brother." She teased. "You do seem a little off though... I know you had a good time but, I could see your mind go somewhere else every now and then." She said. "It's just been a few busy days, I guess I'm just tired." I'm happy Maya is here, how could I not be? I love my sister to pieces. "Can I ask you a question?" She asked smiling. "Feels like I'm going to regret it but shoot." I laughed. "What's exactly going on between you and Gracie?" I knew this would come. "I told you we were sort of seeing each other." I shrugged. "Don't get me wrong, I am happy about that. You guys have had a crush on each other for months, everyone could see that... but it seems like there's something holding you both back and I don't understand what it is." She sighed, putting her hand on my shoulder. "It's complicated, Maya." I sighed. "She can't be seen in public with me, dating is bad press for me according to management." I groaned frustrated. "A few days ago she almost got fired and left out of tour... we can only be together in her apartment." I shrugged. My heart was sinking as we had this talk, and all I could think about was how shitty she must feel everytime she has to turn down any plan with us. With me.