Letters by the Wind

XV. be Selfish

"it won't take longer right?" he asked me while his hand held tight in mine

"yeah...I guess" we then stepped at the cable and I can feel us being pushed up, it took us for so long to get the view at the half top, we're few feet away from the ground and we're not at the top already, how tall is this ferris wheel anyway?

as we're getting lifted, I can see from the horizon of a steady waves in the sea, the moon reflects itself in the waves and the stars are visible from the heavens, you can see the mountains in the rear view of the ferris wheel, people walking down the pier, how is it possible that I didn't notice the hotel behind the pier, didn't even notice the large buildings stack in one place at the other side of the freeway

"let's take a picture?" I glance back at Will giving him my shocked eyes

"why of the sudden you want a picture with me?"

"well...you know memories" as he unzip my bag and take out my polaroid

"okay" I sat near him, I make sure to fill up my bag with filmstrip as for sure that I can get a something memorable pictures out of this trip, Will was holding the camera, faces us and we're making fun faces, I tilted my head for a bit when I notice Will tilted his head onto mine too, he went to grab his other hand and went onto my face, he pressed my cheeks and took a picture of us, I do the same but it's on his chin, making a pouty lips, we're already at the top and I cannot get enough from the view when

"oh sht...you still have any films out there?" he asked while trying to search onto my

"yeah...I brought a thousand to make sure I'm not loosing any memorable pictures on this trip" I answered, it took Will for so long to get the film out of my bag and I notice we're starting to be pull back to the grounds

"Will have you find it?" I put my hands on his lap and shake him while my head is looking at the sea

"oh yeah...there is it" when yhe words comes out of his mouth, I turn my head to face him when he's already been facing me, I was shocked at his beautiful brunette hair being put together by the wind, his light blue eyes are stunning, and our faces are so close that our nose are brushing off together, both of us were frozen to death and I don't know how to react either way, the camera clicks and we're back to reality, I shove away from him and so did he

"umm..." I went on first

"I'm sorry"
"I'm sorry" both of us went to say one thing, I look at him and he's looking at me too, I don't know how to react on this awkward conversation, I noticed him chuckle and I can't take a moment anyways and laugh, both of us laugh at our stomach until we reached the grounds

"that was a good ride then" he said while holding my hands, we stepped off the cable and went to walk back to the car

"can I ask you a question?" I was kinda bit curious about his question, and what is he wanted to know from me

"about that thing..." he stopped for a bit and put his arms around his neck, sliding it "you cried"

we both stopped for a bit and memories came back, the time were I went to buy a donut and remembered my grandpa, I don't know about him but I do still miss him, even though he was so hard on me

"oh" is all I could say

"wait I'm sorry for bringing that one up" he then cut his action went over my shoulder, leaning more towards me "look...if you want to talk about it or not, I'll be right here to listen"

"no...actually I wanted to..." I stopped for a moment as he lean more towards me, our heads were about to hit, I want to back off but I can't I'm frozen in this state "but..." after the word comes out of my mouth, he then lean back away from me, curios about his action so did I to him