Letters by the Wind

XVIII. Think of

Friday Morning
To what I thought again, I woke up earlier than Will with my body facing against him and he's hands wrapped around me, wait what is this? I can feel myself tracing the abs on my back and the heat from his body which give me comfort, I examine myself first and him later on. Did I just fck him or he fck me? I went to slowly lift up the blankets and thankfully my short is still on. I suddenly feel a head move, leaning towards my ear

"so what now?" his voice are raspier than ever before, probably from waking up and he tightened his arms more, making me pull back to him even more

"wait let me ask you this" I didn't let go of the hold though and lift my head to my shoulders "did something happen between us?" I look at him with my worrying eyes but he just smirk

"nope..." and I turn my back to face him "you went all out last night" what's that? OH GOD!

"jerk" as my hand slowly slaps him in the face, I'm still sleepy though "so nothing happened between us right?" I ask him again but now he widened his eyes

"yea" he removed one of his arms from my back and he slowly touch my expose cheek "you don't see yourself as tomboy right?" I got the chance to back away from him, even though I care much to stay

"nope" and I stand up from the bed and let him see my expose legs

"to tell you Cailey" he sounded more of a man now "why does no one likes you?" he then sit at the corner of the bed

"I don't know...maybe they see me as tomboy, even my parents care to tell me that it's okay if I'll say I'm lesbian" I put my hair up together and make it into bun

"why then? that's my first impression of you too" I elbowed him in the chest as I was about to sit next to him, facing the landscape

"look I don't mean to be jerk but you do look so gorgeous...you have curves and you're tall, you can be a model if you wanted to and you have a long legs...who the heck is a boy who don't love long legs?" with my expression are widened and blankly

"I don't know...I'm in no rush" as I shrug my shoulders, he tap my back circling it

"well you sure can find one soon...or maybe right here" I looked at him to expect a smirk in his face, but no, he just smiled

"you wish" as I look my body at him and face him "so what's this party?" when that word comes out of my mouth, I can feel his fist pull back together and worries are about to form in his face

"actually this party is like a big party for everyone in the school" I looked at him confused "so you never went to a party before?"

"I went to many parties before but not like this, I feel like I'm feeling anxious about this party" and I rub both of my arms around my shoulders

"don't worry I got you" he then winked and went to the bathroom, I can't say it is a full winked because I can feel the fakeness of his wink, don't even know if that's a word. I heard his phone buzz, it sounds like someone texted him, to what I didn't expect from him, his wallpaper is me eating from that beach last monday, but I doesn't seem to care much of it as a name James appears on the screen, 'tell her now or you'll regret later'. I don't seem to care much of it because I know I'm just used by him and nothing ever is growing inside me nor him, do I haven't yet?

"someone texted you!" I shout at him who's him is quick to get out of the bathroom and grabbed his phone, I saw his face kinda' bit worried as he flew his fingers everywhere in the screen to make a text. I'm not even bothered by him when my eyes suddenly slipped into his body, he's lower body is mostly covered by towels wrap around his waist, I can see the V thing starting from his upper waist and then left hung of the towels that covers the rest of it