Letters by the Wind

XX. not rushing

"so what happened?" as my mom slowly calming me down

"Mom...please don't freak out okay"

"I won't not unless you said you let him under your legs without protection" eww, what was she thinking?

"mom! gross!" I then turn away from her embarrassed

"did he just crawl-" I cut her off

"mom...he didn't touch me, though we slept to a same bed for the last five days but I didn't allow him to do that for me" and I turn back to her

"oh okay...okay back to the topic" she crossed her arms

"apparently Will and I aren't together actually..." I look at her and she seems not impressed by it "he just kinda' used me for a clout to get back to her girlfriend" and fist starts to form in my hand

"oh...sorry for that honey" she then hugged me "did he get back to her?" I look at my mom trying to find something pleasing

"yeah...I guess" I then looked away again "I saw him with her making out...so I mind myself to get out of the party because my mission is done" and tears starts to grow even bigger

"what makes you so sure that he's back with him...you have any proof?" wiat is she siding him now

"apparently no" I lean more towards her and falls into her arms

"so you can't conclude without gathering the data right?" I know she got a point

"I know..." I look up to her "mom I love him now! I LOVE HIM!" I tighten my grip to his arms

"I know you do...did you said it to him one time?" now that's a point "did he knows that you're in love with him?"

"actually I didn't" I then loose my grip and stare back at her again

"look...I don't want to interrupt any of the decisions you want to make honey...but it seems from the beginning..." she stops there

"from the beginning what?" I looked at her so confused

"you've change Cailey...since the day he went here, I can feel a sudden alien-side of you" ouch "that night where he dropped you, I was talking to you but you're not taking any of it from me. You said it aloud that you have a boyfriend which hangs us because that's not even the answer we needed from our question to 'why are you late?" oh yeah not that please "that's why we feel a sudden shift of you...I-I thought for a moment you're a lesbian" she let out a sighed

"then by tomorrow that day...you always never rushed down the stairs if someone's meeting you...to tell you frankly you're so rude to your cousin when they're here to see you, to only notice you waking up so late and being so grumpy that day" now that's me "then I never think of you to come with us in a vacation because your father and I decided to let you go along with Will...because" she stopped for a bit when she noticed my eyes bloodshot and mouth wide open, she went up from my chin and closed it

"we don't want to bother any of the plans you two been planning...well we also don't want to take your brother with us because he wanted a rest as he concluded" I then feel my dad appeared in the door

"he still do have a lot explanation to make" he went near me and my mom glares at her "honey...I'm just joking okay" so what now? my family siding up with him

"but Cailey...you do still have explanations to owe for him"

"I know..."

"when he'll be back and why are you all by yourself here?" as my father asked me

"well...I got out of the party" he raised an eyebrow

"you went out of the party without his permission?" he went near me, joining mom sitting beside us "you know that's rough from a boy right? even though they're that jerk"