Letters by the Wind

XXXIV. you now

"wait..." I just realised I wasn't paying attention to the pictures at all. It's the quotes that my grandpa put on those diaries is what I'm focusing on

"you figure it out later..." she then proceeded to turn the page back "this is the time where we decided to make a vow together...we made a promise to be best friends forever...this" as she pointed out another picture of them both holding hands "we both spit on our hands and we shake our hands to signify friendship we had..."

Well another few minutes of listening to her story. They both went into the same school in elementary and in high school. Everything of the story was beautiful not until that one picture, I saw my grandpa on the hospital "what happened to him?" I asked her and looked at the quote that is highlighted with red

I was born not special

"well that's the day where the table is turned" her eyes starts to form tears now "he was immediately sent to the hospital because he was trying to protect his father from gangs..." she then turned the pages back and saw a picture of him being alone on the bench "I'm the one who took that picture...I spied at him" I then looked back at the highlighted quote, why I never noticed this before?

Everyone thinks I'm special, but I tell you...I'm not

"his father died...her mother later on died because of cancer..." flipped the pages to 30 pages I guess

"why did you skip it?"

"all of those are just nonsense...then here" she pointed out the picture of them both with the highlighted phrase

I just found the love of my life

"he's so happy that I said yes over his invitation to be his prom date" then again flipped the page once "we went to the same university...we both love football and you can see it in the front page we won as a team...he was the captain while I was his assistant attacker... that was the last time I played football because I have to say goodbye to university since I've graduated first..." I just realised that how my grandma skipped one year in university because of her high grade average. She closes the book and went back to the shelves

"but something is missing...something is wrong" I said to her "he never mentioned any of his childhood days in there..."

"I know" she didn't look at me but she still kept on looking for some random books on the shelves "but here's the answer to that" she then opened a book that has an old cover too. She opened it at where the leather thing that hung in between of the pages in the book. As she opened it, she went to grab a piece of two small envelopes in it. She went near me and gave me the first envelope

"read this first" as she handed me the first envelope "then this later on" she gave me the other one "I'll be just outside...I'll leave it to you here" she proceeded to walk pass the door and back into the bedroom. I heard a clicking sound of door handles of the door in the master bed. I went to check it out and noticed she went outside

I was hesitant to open it, but if it's for me, then it's for me. I once again opened the envelope and was surprised by a folded letter. I unfolded it and was amazed by the writings, my grandpa really had a good hands

This is for anyone who might care about me. This for anyone that is special to me. This is for someone to whom I loved the most but failed to show it on her. This is for you Cailey

I was shocked by the words

When I was just a child, I never experienced the thing called love. No one had showed me love, no one even bothered to care for me, I had birthdays without anyone knowing it. I think of my life as a mess since I'm not special to my family. I always had this thing revenge on them but failed to because they're already dead. I had always hate them because they are always on the topic of businesses. I hate them so much but I do still love them. My sister and brother was taken away from me, we were on separate ways. I was the oldest and I felt so bad for myself that I cannot stand up for my family. They are always the one in there whenever I needed comfort. Now I'm not there for them when they needed comfort. I never met them again when I was taken by my fathers dad. Everything in me starts to break down when I knew that my sister had died because of cancer and later on my brother died because of car accident. I wasn't able to get on their funeral because I was busy handling these family business. I'm the only one left from my family and everything in me starts to break down. But one thing that my grandpa told me...is 'Never give up', so I did, I didn't gave up. I invested my life in business that I forgot I had four childrens. I wanted to forget everything that happened that's why I left Sophie and my children just to prove to myself that I can be whatever I want, no distractions in life, no childrens. During that time, the family business grew bigger and bigger until it became one of the biggest companies in the entire world. Up until now. But I tell you, I thought I'll be happy when I reached my goals but something still is bothering me. That's when I realize I have a wife and four childrens. I decided come back to them and when I came back, my oldest daughter Jaclyn had two babies. Named Cailey and Bradley. I was so jealous about you two that's why I set up to get your father's company get bankrupt. I thought I'll be happy about it and so I really did was. I took all of that revenge on the both of you. Especially you Cailey. I always think of you as my mother that's why I put too much tense on you. Time goes by and the happiness that fills me over punishing you starts to fade and it starts to become regret and pain. I wanted to show something in you but I failed to because the words 'I love you' is kept on the edge of my tongue and I couldn't say it. Believe me, as much as I want to attend that family day, I would but I came there so late, everyone left already and so was Wendy and you. I'm so hard on you because I know you're special Cailey. Believe me, you are to me. When I locked you in your room, the reason behind it is I get so angry at you and it reminded me of my mother punishing me because I broke the plate. Everything about you is everything about my mother too, that's why I wanted to get my revenge on you. The time you broke the vase, yes, I feel like my world starts to fall again the fact that I hated myself for hating you even though I didn't mean to hate you at all. I really can't control my anger that time because the memories of my father getting murdered keeps on flashing back, I thought of you for a second of killing you because I wanted to kill that person behind it and the only thing in front of me is you. Until I realizes something, it's you.

I decided to wipe off the tears on my cheeks

I read your letter that night, after you were sent to the hospital. You decided to wrote me a letter of apology for making mess. That's when I fully realise that you're different, you totally are different from any other Cailey. You can still forgive even though how much a person can treat you. You're an angel in disguise Cailey, you truly are. You quoted "I'm sorry" makes me realize, I'm the one who need to say sorry Cailey. It took me a lot of time before thinking of saying sorry and never in my life I said I'm sorry. Two days prior the incident I decided to meet you at the hospital but I was too late. You went across the continent already. Sophie didn't gave me the address where you are now. Not I only lost you but I also lost Sophie. I lose her already and I didn't know that at first. She was the love of my life and now I lose her. This is a promise I keep on myself Cailey, one day, one day someone special for me is going to take over my place. And if it's you Cailey then it's you. If you even care to read this letter, I just wanted to say "I'm sorry and I love you"

Now I finally had realised why my grandpa is so hard on me. I hugged the letter and decided to cry more of it, trying to imagine I'm hugging my very own old man. It's too late already, he died 4 years ago and I couldn't even say I love you. It took me a lot of time before my eyes landed on the envelope that stays in there unopened. I reached it and opened it. My eyes wide open to the words

"This is given to Cailey Gibber Ridge as the new owner of the Vouschneaes Castle. Given on May 22nd of 2015. Signed by Alejandro Gordoise Williams III on May 22nd of 2015. Hail the new Queen of England" I look over my right to see a crying Sophie and a crying mom and dad and also a crying Katharine. Behind them is a smiling Hela carried by a smiling Bradley. I went to hug my grandma

"I figure out it's the time you need to know"

"but it's too late I didn't said my last goodbye" I said through her neck

"everything is not too late Cailey...it just happened that time wants it to be" I look back at her and asked

"where's the tomb" she smiled and I can see my Aunt by her side saying

"I'll show you" that's when I nodded and followed her outside the castle. We started trailing to the big empty space that is full of grass. I followed her tracks onto the forest behind it. It took us literally 20 minutes to get in the tombstone of my grandpa "that's him Cailey" he pointed out the nicely decorated small house. In the middle of the forest. She went to open the doors for me and let me inside "I'll be right here when you're done" I nodded and she closes the door. I turned on the lights and saw a Brown coloured Marble in the middle of a greek like designs interior. I went near the tomb and kneeled in fromt of it

"grandpa...I'm sorry..." if only I could hug him now, I would probably do it "I love you too" and again I cried, I let out a stream of tears on my cheeks.

I went back into my room as I finished eating dinner. Well, it took me literally 30 minutes at the tomb before standing up and head back to the castle. I laid on my bed for moment now and I still can't get it out of my mind now. If I'm the Queen then who's the King. I thank God for letting my phone buzz because I totally need a break from that thought. I wenr to reach out for it anf answer Annes call

"hey"

"hey" and I again saw Mason beside her

"you two just?" I asked them through the phone

"nope..."