Time ➳ BTS

16 | Echoes of emotion

"What do you mean you don't know?" he asked perplexed, sitting straight up. "There must be something, anything you need to do if you really want to expose her. Or are you already giving up?" His voice slightly raised, a bit annoyed at how you were acting.

You sighed, too tired to argue. "Jungkook, it's not like I don't want to expose her, I just don't know how..." He swiftly sat up, turning to face you with a determined expression on his face.

"I can speak with the others, if you want me to," he offered earnestly.

You let out a sarcastic laugh. "I don't think that will convince them, Jungkook. But thank you for trying to help me." You gave him a sincere smile. Seriously, this boy was just so cute and full of innocence— okay, maybe not really innocent, but simple, humble, generous, and so much more.

He's closer to being a worshipped god than you'll ever be, and that's a fact.

You remembered the poison that was in him and stared at his face with a frown. "Are you seriously feeling okay now, though?"

His eyes cast downwards, bangs covering his eyes. He didn't say anything after you had asked, and you were about to apologize if it weren't for the lonely tear escaping his eye. He didn't bother to wipe it away and only gulped.

"Having venom in you without even knowing how it got there is really scary, yeah?" He chuckled dryly, and you placed your hand on his shoulder before gently squeezing it, trying to somehow comfort him. "I... I couldn't move, I could barely even breathe, damn it!" His hand moved through his hair, and you could see that he really struggled to not break down, but it was hard.

The realization hit you like a ton of bricks. In your own turmoil and struggles, you hadn't even considered how Jungkook would be feeling after such a harrowing experience. Guilt flooded your chest, weighing heavily on your heart.

How could you have been so self-absorbed? Here was Jungkook, vulnerable and shaken, and all you could think about was your own guilt and worry. You felt like you had failed him, failing to offer the comfort and support he needed in the aftermath.

He continued speaking before you could even apologize. "Everything sounded so muffled, and people were everywhere around me, some of them screamed, I think." His eyes widened a little in recollection. "My insides felt like they were getting burned alive, and everything hurt so much."

"The look Namjoon had... it was something I never saw on him. He thought I was going to die, didn't he?" He chuckled bitterly.

"I'm so sorry for not considering your feelings, Jungkook," you muttered.

He shook his head while wiping another tear away that escaped. "Don't be. You saved my life when we don't even know each other that long," a pang of sadness reached your heart when you heard his last words and you frowned. "If it weren't for you, I would have lost a kidney or maybe even both, and perhaps even my life."

"I still feel bad you know. I feel guilty for the things that happened to all of you."

Jungkook shook his head yet again. "You shouldn't, except if you are actually the one behind this." He joked and burst into laughter. You softly laughed with him, your laughs filling the room.

As the laughter subsided, the male's expression softened. "Seriously, though," he said earnestly, "none of this is your fault. We all know you're not capable of something like that."

You smiled gratefully at his words, feeling like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders. "Thanks, Jungkook. It means a lot to hear you say that."

To change the topic, you thought about today. "Wait, wasn't your Comeback and Fansigning today?" you asked, realizing that they had their Comeback and fansign of WINGS: You Never Walk Alone.