A Grip On Reality (Destiel AU)

Baby I'm Amazed By You

I honestly didn't know what to expect at the homecoming dance. I'd just spend time with my friends and dance a little, but that was it. Or so I thought.

I walked in and found my friends, Hester and Anna. We were talking and having a good time, but there was only one thing I could focus on.

There was this guy.

His name was Crowley, and I'd managed to fall head over heels for him. Why him, I'd never know. I just looked at him one day and saw... an angel.

But at the beginning of sophomore year, I told him how I felt, because it was driving me crazy. Throughout the most part of the summer, I couldn't eat or sleep because these emotions were all bottled up.

He didn't respond well. But I didn't care. I expected nothing less. I rehearsed what I was going to say in the mirror in my bedroom about a dozen times over. I didn't even sleep the previous night because I was so stressed out. I would continuously picture his reaction to my revelation, and it always turned out the same way.

He said no. I asked if he would give us a chance, and he said no.

And that night, on the dance floor, I was scouring the entire gym trying to find him. I at least wanted to see how enchanting he looked. And he most definitely was enchanting.

I kept watching him as he talked to his friends, hoping he wouldn't notice me. Not that he would, as invisible as I was.

Eventually, I sat down at a chair by the wall next to the door to the gym. I needed to relax myself. I couldn't help it if he gave me butterflies.

After a while of trying to keep myself centered, I decided to get back to dancing, while Pharrell Williams's "Happy" was playing.

I tried to just get lost in the music, hoping to get my mind off Crowley. It didn't really work. I found myself trying to get a glimpse of him every now and then, but it was so dark it was difficult to discern much of anything.

At some point, a girl walked up to me and tapped me on the shoulder. I recognized her, her name was Sarah.

"Do you wanna come dance with us?" She had to yell over the music blaring out of the speakers.

"Uh... sure!" I shouted back, following her to her group of friends.

The group consisted of at least five people, some of whom I knew to an extent. There was Sarah and two guys whose names I didn't really know. I didn't know any of them that well, though. The other two guys I didn't recognize at all. But it didn't surprise me, I didn't know my school as well as I should've.

We were all dancing and having a good time, and one by one, the other dancers began to disappear. Until it was just me and the two mystery teens.

The boy was about two inches taller than me, had green eyes, and dirty blonde hair. I assumed his eyes were green, but the lighting in the gym made it hard to tell. The girl was a bit shorter and had long, red hair.

Soon, she left, and it was just me and green eyes.

"Looks like it's just you and me, huh?" He yelled above all the clamor.

I just nodded. "Yeah, looks like it!"

"I guess Charlie abandoned us!"

I nodded again. "Yeah!" I was never the best conversationalist.

We made meager small talk until Charlie returned. "I just kissed Pamela Barnes!"

We all laughed, though I had no idea who this Pamela was. We continued to dance until a slow song came on; I didn't recognize it. I looked around. Everyone had a partner. Holding each other close, swaying to and fro in time with the music. I wanted that with Balthazar more than anything, but I knew it was a hopeless dream.