Can't Tell [Frankiana]

CHAPTER 27

Diana's POV

"Are you just going to sleep all day?" Gazini asked after sitting beside me in this bed. I heavily sighed before lifting my whole body and sitting next to her.

"I'm so tired..." I yawned while stretching both of my arms. I think my body is still weak and I even lost my appetite. I've been eating bad these past few days.

"You need to eat. Come on, don't torture yourself like this just because you got hurt." I supposed to be mad by what she said but somehow she's right so I just stayed in silent and let her talk.

"Your mom keeps calling, she wants you to go home..." Gazini then held my hands and slowly rubbing it now. I looked at her with my shallow eyes.

"All will be alright in time, Dee." She kissed my cheeks before tapping my head, "You're strong, you will get through this. I'm still here for you, but you really have to get up right now. I don't want Tita Rowena to be stressed out, I cooked something for you..." The old one then stood up while giving me her ate talk. I burst a small and soft chuckle after her words.

"I am, gee, thanks." I said with a low tone before leaning against the bed and covering my whole face with a pillow.

"I'm so tired." I rants underneath this pillow. Then I heard the sound of the door. Gazini left already so then I removed the pillow and bent my body to meet the side view of this room.

It's been two days since I came her. And it also been two days since I saw the beautiful face of Franki. Yes, she's still beautiful for me even if someone is already telling her that. She's probably so happy right now too with him. I can imagine how she burst her laugh everytime he make a joke. The way her eyes looked at him with such admiration. How they kissed and hugged each other every seconds of the day.

They must be really happy.

While me, sucked and fucked alone. Slowly messing up my whole life because the person I loved is now gone. I can't even finish my thesis in law class, which is tomorrow night is the deadline. I didn't call my boss in the company that I've been working on. I'm really fuck, like so fuck. What can I do, when everytime I tried to do something good and light, the memories of that night instantly flashbacks. Erasing it would never be easy, it remains for pete's sake.

Although the doctor told me to sleep earlier for me to gain back my strength and healthy body, I still cannot sleep with all this pain. Thankful to the sleeping pills though, it really helps but sometimes I don't take it. I just don't like forcing myself to do things that I don't really want. While looking up to the sky, a sudden realizations hit me. Why am I doing this to myself? I'm hurt, deeply hurt. And hurting myself even more will caused me nothing but a greater pain.

I must stop hurting myself, Veah's right.

And then for a sudden moment I just found myself walking to the kitchen. There I saw Gazini sitting on the table chair. She's preparing the foods she just cooked. She's the best of the best, she's been taking care of the fucked Diana for almost three days. And even I can't imagine how hard is that. Day one, I was screaming all night, losing all my voice by crying and hitting myself. Thank goodness that she handled me so well.

"I appreciate you so much, Gaz." I said my thankyou to her which makes her to giggled.

"I got you always, Mackeronni." She bust out a laugh before serving me the plate. It was my favorite tortang talong.

I was sadden by a moment. It's Franki's favorite vegetable too. I can't help but to show a smile and my teary eyes. I never thought that being happy and sad at the same time could really happen. Because for a very long time I believed that everyone of us could only do one thing at the moment. We can't turn left while turning to right. And so is that to love.