For Me ❦ || Mattia Polibio

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a/n: the situation in the last chapter actually happened to both me and my friend (at different times) so in a way we both got through it together. i was lucky to have someone who understood what i was going through.

y/n's pov

i didn't even remember falling asleep but i woke up on my floor, still wrapped in my blanket. it was currently 9:00 am so that meant i missed first period. the first thing i desperately needed to do was shower, i still felt his fingers on me so i needed to wash the feelings away somehow.

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everyone could tell my mood was down but they didn't say anything. nicole and katie tried their best to comfort me but i wasn't ready to tell them what happened. on my way to the next class, i saw dylan in the distance talking to his friends. it refreshed my memories of last night so i ran into the bathroom before he could see me.

mattia's pov

bell rings

"ight i'll catch you guys later," i dap up alejandro and kairi.

i hope y/n was feeling better since she missed first period. my question was answered when i saw her running frantically into the bathroom. the hallways cleared up so no one was around to see me walk in.

"y/n?" i call out.

i heard muffled cries coming from the biggest stall and peeked under, only to find her burying her face into her knees.

"what happened?" i ask. "let me in." she didn't get up from her spot so i had to resort to my only option. i crawled under the door and went her side. "what's wrong?" i extend my arm out to pull her towards my chest.

she tugs on my shirt and continues crying while hugging me back tightly.

"say something," i mumble. "did i do this? are you upset with me?"

y/n shakes her head. "it wasn't you."

"then what is it?"

she bites her lip and doesn't say anything.

"you can trust me," i assure her. "i won't say or do anything."

"i'm scared," she whispers.

before i replied, i lean in to kiss her softly. it was my way of telling her that i was here for her and for her to calm down a little. "don't be scared. tell me what's wrong."

"last night," she sniffles. "dylan came over with some alcohol and the two of us drank, a lot. and then the next thing i know, he was on top of me and kissing me and then he tried to..."

"tried to what?" i ask. after what happened with mr. allens, i tried my best to not assume anymore but her story was only heading to one direction. "what'd he do?"

"he slipped his hands into my pants and i kept telling him to stop and pushing him away but i wasn't strong enough. i was drunk and tired," she continues. "he kept, going and going-- i thought it wouldn't end. it hurt so much mattia, i can't explain it."

the anger that arose was in was something that i couldn't explain. i stayed quiet and let her finish the story.

"when i woke up, i still felt his presence on me and it was disgusting," she cries into my chest again and as if it was a reflex, my arms immediately wrap around her.

"i'm gonna kill him," i mumbled.

"no mattia you can't tell anyone," she brings her head up.

"why not?"

"cause i don't have proof, what if no one believes me?"

"i believe you," i say. "but guys like him, deserve what i'm gonna do the next time i see him."

"no, promise me you'll stay under control," she replies. "don't do anything-- at least not yet."

"but-"

"promise."

i sigh. "okay i promise." the thought of her in pain or being touched like that fueled my anger. i honestly don't know if i'll be able to keep my emotions under control.

a/n: lowkey spammed today

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