classic converse | hwang hyunjin ✔️

[ 10 ]

chapter 10-,

heejin's pov~

the next morning was sunday so i decided to get up early and be productive for the first time. i headed to the cafeteria and looked around at all the foods, picked up whatever looked good, then sat at a table.

i texted hyunjin asking to meet but he left me on read. disappointed but not surprised, i ate whatever i had picked up. it was supposed to be for both hyunjin and i but boy doesn't talk to me anymore.

as soon as i was about to leave, i saw hyunjin walking towards me. he sat in the chair in front of me and looked kinda awkward. i smiled and rubbed his hand with my thumb. "how have you been?" he shrugged and stared at my hand on his. i took it off thinking it bothered him and he looked up at me. "what do you wanna talk about?" he sounded so serious and i felt myself slump a bit but i tried my best to also be serious.

"why have you been ignoring me?" he hesitated to answer but did. "ive been busy." "with what? it's barley the beginning of the semester." "i have a life you know!" his voice was raised and i got scared. he noticed cause he bit his lip. "im sorry.." he rubbed his arm and i slowly nodded. "it's fine, are you sure you're okay?"

he looked at the table and picked at it. "if i tell you, will you say anything?" i shook my head but that just made me even more curious. "when you brought nara to the table, all my memories with her just came right back. it's not something i wanna remember, yeah what we had was nice but i knew i had to break up with her when i found out my mom was sick." his eyes began to water and i felt my heart get tight.

"im sorry to hear that." he didn't say anything back but instead he kept telling me things. "as soon as i found out, i couldn't bare to lose my mom, so i decided while i still had the chance i had to break up with her. it was slowly killing me imagining a world without my mom and i knew it was gonna take a toll on me and i would start to act different. i couldn't face her anymore, i didn't want her to know how much pain i was in. so i broke up with her and i don't think i felt anything from it. most of the pain i had was from finding out about my mom being sick, it overpowered me."

it was all so confusing but i understood where he came from. at this point he was crying and i felt so bad. he covered his face and i heard sniffing so i got up from my seat, went over to him, and pulled him close to me and hugged him. since he was sitting and i was standing, his head rested by my chest and he wrapped his arms around my waist and continued crying. i held him tight.

"hyunjin, im sorry everything happened like that. i know it's hard to forget and it might take a while, maybe you won't even be able to forget about it. but it's part of life and things are gonna feel like shit." i hugged him tighter and softly rubbed his head trying to get him to calm down. "i can't do anything to help but what i can do is be here for you."

i let him cry as long as he needed. i knew everything was hurting him, it was hurting me as well. after a good while i knew he had stopped crying but he stayed hugging me and all i did was hold him and rub his head. "are you okay now?" he backed away and nodded but i stayed standing there. he looked at me and i grabbed his face and made him look at me.

"please don't ignore me again, i missed you." he gave me those sad puppy eyes and nodded. i was too in the moment, i kept staring at his eyes and his cheeks and all his facial features, especially his lips. i quickly shook the thoughts out of my head and let go and smiled, backing away.

"i have to go now, ill see you later?" i grabbed my bag and threw it over my shoulder as he nodded. we waved goodbye and i went on with the day. i didn't know it hurt him that much but i was so glad he told me, i felt trusted and happy. not only did i get him to talk to me again but i also got him to open up to me.