anything for you

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Sunday, March 8th, 2020

I woke up around 10 but I didn't feel like getting up. It's Sunday and both of my parents are off work today but I don't wanna face my dad. Throughout the day I watched YouTube on my TV or listened to music. I look at the time on my phone

2:37p.m.

Holy shit. I really just sat around doing nothing.

I hated doing that. I made a promise to myself when we moved that I won't be such a lazy bum. I got up and I was still wearing my clothes from yesterday because I was too tired and mad to change. Last night all i wanted to do was scream.

I grabbed a towel from the closet and closed the bathroom door behind me, locking it. I hate it when people come into the bathroom when i'm in the shower. But now we have more than one bathroom so I can finally say "use the other bathroom!"

I turn on the water and close the curtain without getting in. While the water gets hot I brush my teeth and get undressed. I stare at myself in the mirror for way too long. Looking at my body I realize how many flaws I have. In the 5th grade some kid made fun of my eyes and ears and 5 years later I still think about it. I start to point out all the flaws on my body when a knock jolts me back to real life

"Anna you in there?"

it's Julien, we literally have more than one bathroom

"Yes J, what do you want?"

"well my xbox got here today and i was just wondering if you wanted to play w-

I cut him off immediately. I've always waited for him to ask me this. When he wasn't home I would sneak into his room and play games. Now I was just asked to play.

"yes!!" I probably sounded way too excited, but I was excited.

"uhh, okay Anna. Just come into my room when you're dressed."

He left and I got into the shower. Letting the hot water go against my skin as I washed my face. I didn't know how much time I spent in there, all I knew was that the water was cold now. I wrapped myself in a towel and made my way to my bedroom. Once again, had to dig through boxes to find clothes to wear.

I turned around and on my bed were a brand new pair of red Vans. There was a little piece of paper underneath it and I hesitated but grabbed it.

"I'm so sorry about last night, dear. I was in the wrong. I've heard you talking about these to your mother and I wanted you to have them now."

Love, Dad.

He's really gonna make it up to me through a note and some shoes? I'm not complaining about the shoes, I have been wanting them for awhile. But I wish I had a better relationship with my dad. I put them in my closet with my other shoes and put on gray shorts with my brothers old shirt, which was way too big for me.

I walked into his room and he was in the middle of a game of call of duty. I only knew because of how much I played it back home.

Stop calling it that. That place isn't your home.

"Hold on I'm in the middle of a game we'll play when I'm done."

I sat down on his bed a few feet from him and just stared at the screen with a small grin on my face. I can finally play the Xbox not in secret.

The game ended and he got me a controller to play. It was his old one so it was all worn out and the buttons were dirty and messed up, but I didn't care. I finally get to play.