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17-rememberance and confessions.

Recap

The girls all take Anna to the party and Jamie drugs her and Phillips r*pes her. Anna runs out of the house and ends up passing out on the street. Yeah yeah finds her and they all bring her inside Benny's house. Anna tells them what happened. Squints shows Anna a snapchat story which has a familiar song and it all floods back.

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"They hit me, didn't they." My voice is so quiet but it seems like it's booming. Alarms are going off everywhere in my head and I pass out again.

"Hey, Hannah, I've been thinking about what you've said and I think I'm ready."

What?

"What's goi-" Yeah Yeah covers my hand with his mouth and whispers to be quiet.

"Yeah, I have one. Come over." He hangs up the phone and sits back down on the couch and stares at the floor.

"You sure you wanna do it this way Bennyman?" I almost forgot DeNunez was even here. I guess he was sitting behind me the whole time.

"I have to or I'm never gonna be able to."

I look up and Yeah Yeah mouths

"Just wait."

I nod and reach for the water glass, Bertram holds it to my lips again for a few seconds. I try to move my hand up to grab it but my hand is shaking so bad Squints gently grabs my hand and moves it back down.

I don't know why but I start to cry. Benny takes one look at me and runs over and says the words once again, as soft as ever.

"Hey, it's gonna be okay. You're gonna be fine." He wipes the tears from my eyes.

We hear a car screech to a stop and soon after a knock comes to the door.

"Babe, i-im he-hereeeeeee."

What is Hannah doing here?

She's slurring so bad it sounds like she's wearing a retainer.

Benny takes a deep breath and tells us all move away from the door. Bertram moves me across the couch and puts my head back in Yeah Yeah's lap. He slowly walks to the door and opens it.

"Hey."

"Heyyyyyy Ben-benny. Are you ready for me?" She takes off her shoes and slowly puts them on the floor.

"Are you drunk?"

"I drank a little."

"You call reeling out and passing out on the streets a little? Hannah I told you I'm never going out with you when you're drinking and I mean it."

"Baby, I'm sorry. Anna made me."

I wanted to scream at her. I take a deep breath and a hand covers my mouth again. I breathe back out slowly and it goes away.

"Can I ask you something really quick?"

"Don't worry baby, I'm on birth con-

"Did Jamie drug Anna?"

"W-what?"

"Did you know about it."

"I don't have to tell you anything."

"Yes or no Hannah."

"Wellllllll, it wasn't JUST Jamie."

"What do you mean." He said it as if it wasn't a question.

"Lauren suggested it. Nobody cares about that freak anyways."

Even from a distance, I saw his eyes dilate and his face turn red.