Fragments of Me

Chap 8 : Eyes

I went to school with a hungover but tried to keep my chin up. Lazily as possible I continued with the class hoping when will dispatch arrive. Then at the secomd period I get called to  the Vice Principal's office. Head and self-esteem hung low, I dragged myself to her dreaded chamber. There she sat, solid as rock, crooked as a witch and with an attitude she might get killed for. I asked for her permission to enter.

Vice Principal : After yesterday's little incident, how are you today?

Me : Not fine, thank you very much.

Vice Principal : I hope you learned your lesson.

Me : For cheating? Oh that I did.

Vice Principal : Not only that. Your behaviour towards your teachers or anyone senior.

Me : Yes ma'am

Vice Principal : Ok good now you can head back.

Me : Ma'am, can I ask u something? Why is it that I feel that you hate me and can't stand the sight of me?

Vice Principal : I don't hate you nor can I not stand the sight of you. It's your insolence and behaviour that ruins your picture.

Me : That's why you accused my family backgrounds for my behaviour?

Before she could answer I left her chamber. On the way I bumped into the door which had a small pin sticking out of it so left quite a big slash on my arm. Blood flowed down my arm. Red. I thought if I went to the class everyone would make a huge fuss about it so I climbed up the stairs to the only solitude corner in the whole school. It was a place where everyone of my class used to hide during morning assembly time and music class. Senior boys used to flirt with their girlfriends here. So in that corner I found my sanctuary. Blood still flowed as it was a fresh wound. But somehow the pain in my arm seemed soothing. I felt my anger flowing through my veins and rushing out of the wound. Then I heard a gasp. There she stood, eyes filled with hostility and hands on her mouth. Before I could say anything she rushed to the nurses station to inform about my injury. They wrecked havoc once hearing. They took me to the nurses wing and applied an tetanus injection to disinfect the rust from the pin and then applied antiseptics.  My pain slowly faded away. I turned towards her to find her face pale and in complete fright. I hated her. She took away my cheating privilegesa, she took away my pain and it's only been five months since she is here. After leaving the nurses station I went straight to the field as I was feeling suffocated due to questions being asked about my arm. I knew this would happen. I sat in a corner and saw her coming towards me. She stood in front of me wanting to say something...

The girl : Why are you so weird? Don't you want people to help you?

Me : I think I am capable of getting help myself. I didn't want you to barge in.

The girl : But you were bleeding!

Me : Why do you care? I thought you liked seeing me in punishment or in pain...

The girl : I still do because you are wanting me to but now things have changed.

Me : Have they?

The girl : I know we got off the wrong foot but can we still be friends?

Me : I guess we are better off as enemies.

I guess that sentence wasn't clear to her. She used to poke me all the time and used to ask me answers during exams. I gave them to her on the sake of secrecy. Well it would be a crime if I not say that we became friends in the name of enemies. She stayed for six months and in her last day she told me to stay back. She said she wanted to take some pictures with the whole class so I agreed. It was the last exam of our annual examination so I expected everyone to be there. The photoshoot was supposed to take place in the field and when I went there I got a strange feeling in my stomach. Nobody was present there and I knew she hadn't informed anyone. She came and when I asked her she said she only wanted me to stay back.

The girl : I am sorry but if I hadn't said that you wouldn't have stayed back.

Me : Now that I know, I don't want to.

The girl : Pictures were an excuse. I actually wanted to talk before I left.

Me : I know.

The girl : Ever thought that we can be more than friends?

Me : No.

The girl : Can we be?

Me : No

The girl : Why?

Me : Because then we will be heading towards something that might stay or break up.

The girl : Can't we make it?

Me : We won't cause we don't want to...

The girl : What do you want this to be?

Me : Friends who will soon forget each other...

We took some pictures and then she left. I couldn't explain to her why I had to this. Maybe I didn't even have the courage to tell her. I didn't want to break her heart but a little pain is better than having been completely torn. I wanted to tell her that we didn't have it between us and if it was then it would have been one-sided. Sometimes you have to hurt someone for their own happiness.

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The starting of class seven weighed down on me heavily. A sudden propaganda started that I had a thing going on with "her". Everyone did their part with undying concentration. She had left by saying that I had fallen in love with her. To think she was let me leave and live peacefully! I tried to ignore and the thing got left behind.Days went lamely as hell. Teachers scolded for lack of concentration and parents were constantly scolding for decreasing marks. When I told them of hurting my mindset they said it didn't matter. I guess if I die while studying then they would be satisfied. I am just gonna skip to the start of the final quarter of class seven. The whole school was shifted to a new building. I expected a large field but what all I saw was a parking space. Whatever. I went to find my class. Attentively this time. I found my class and found everyone with a new face among them. My eyes turned to her face. Whoa, that's sad. Her head was almost hung low and she had no intentions of introducing herself nor wanting to know us. She minded her own business which was quite eye catching as it was a first in the class. I suddenly had an urge to know what was in her mind. I sat and my normal beside Mike and the class started off. Like this four of five months went by. But a recent change took place. Mile had a well hidden feeling towards her. Maybe it was me but his eyes told something. If he looked in her direction he would stop and almost have an resistance trying to stop him from turning from her. She didn't care or maybe she did. It's hard to understand girls. Plus she was silent most of the time. Her patient level was gangstar level. She would sit at the beginning of the day and would get up after the school ended. Plus she was studious. My god we were like from other planets. The only thing that showed some feelings was her eyes and even then she tried to suppress them. Wow. Mike pushed me after some days to know her name. I asked the reason for his uprising interest. It smelled fishy. I was not going to go for an introduction considering my past occurrences. The words spoken by her eyes said something which I was dying to know...

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Note : "Silent people are  talkative around the right people".

Took time, patience and a lot of risks but when found out, it felt good.🖤