The world changed for you and me both

Chapter 1

Chase pov:

I was feeling so down and so upset.

I needed Charli more then ever. She helped me more than anyone ever could.

When I was angry, upset, or bothered by the hate she was there to give me hugs and kisses and calm me down.

Today the hate was incredibly strong. Almost every comment on my last tikok was calling me cheater or reminding me Charli was a girl who I have absolutely no chances with.

She deserves better then me.

But she made me a better person, and I was upset and so depressed without her.

I barely get out of bed anymore, and no one can make me smile.

All I am longing for is her beautiful smile, warm kisses, and cuddles.

Everyone is trying to get me out of bed, or telling me to have some happiness.

Thomas even dragged me out of my bed in a tiktok. I was up for the tiktok and then got right back in bed and cried for 3 hours.

Crying seemed to be the only thing I could do these days, either that or being an idiot and not calling her to tell her my feelings.

She was the most gorgeous girl, and most kind girl I've ever met and she is different from any other girl I've seen. She changes me completely.

Most of my depression and anxiety goes away. The feeling of her hands in mine fills me with joy. But that feeling is gone.

I don't even know what joy is anymore. And with that thought tears come streaming down my face again for the fourth time today.

I shouldn't even be counting anymore because the numbers are getting larger everyday. I lay in bed for the rest of the day with no company.

4:00 comes and I hear a knock at the door. "Charli?" I ask.

"No bud, It's just me, Tony."

"Oh, sorry." I say.

"Listen Chase, I know people are telling you to be happy and i'm sure that's hard to hear. What i'm asking though is that you come downstairs and hangout with the guys. It might cheer you up a little?"

"Fine" I say with as much strength I can muster up. "Only if I don't have to watch a stupid romance movie which ends in heartbreak. I've already watched to many and am currently living in one right now."

"First of all, Chase you know we wouldn't do that to you. Second, when do the guys ever watch romance. And third, You'll be okay and you will get through this." Tony said with a somewhat reassuring smile.

Why was Charli the only thing that was in my head?

Why couldn't I get her out?