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Library II

I got up and started to wonder around the library. I walked between the shelves until I came across a familiar book. That was the exact one that you were reading back then. I opened it and ruffled through it. I stopped on to the last page. It had still your drawing there. It was a beautiful rose which was held by two hand. The hands were bleeding because of the thorns were so sharp. I brushed my finger over it. And noticed your signature and the exact date 3.8.2015.

We were walking out of the library, bags hanging of our shoulders. The sun was setting and it painted everything rosy gold. It was beautiful how the whole scenery was in slumber with the warmness of the Autumn evening. It was silent and calm the only thing I heard was the hum escaping through my lips. "So why are you avoiding me?" I stopped humming. I adverted my gaze to you "What do you mean?" "Don't play dumb. I know you are. I just want to know your reason" You said sternly. A sigh escaped my lips as I reached to ruffle your hair "You're just imaging thing. I'm just busy..." I couldn't finish when you slapped my hand away and turned to me. "Don't you dare to give that bullshit. You can fool everyone else, but you can't fool me. So tell me why?" You said. I was taken back. I thought you could just by my explanation. I couldn't find the right words so I was just opening and closing my mouth like a fish out of the water. "So is it because of me? You don't want me anymore? Was it something I did?" And this time you didn't sound angry. You sounded more broken. It truly wasn't my attention to hurt you. I just wanted to get some distance between us. I was going to explain but your phone stated to ring. It kept ringing and ringing. You just kept staring at me. "Aren't you going to answer that?" I asked. You shook your head "It's not as important than this" You said while referring to our situation. The phone rang again. I signaled to your phone "Answer it" You sighed and looked the callers ID. You frowned and your eyes were filled with so many emotions that I couldn't even read them. Then you turned your phone off. "Who was that?" I asked out of curiosity. "No one important" you said while shuffling you phone back to your bag. "You sure. It sure looked like important" I raised my eyebrow. You turned to me "I said it was no one important!" I was taken a bit back by your outburst. "Okay.." I muttered quietly. "Now, tell me why you are ignoring me." You repeated. This time your face was emotionless. I sighed and pinched the bridge of my nose "I just need some time to myself. I'm just having hard time right now. I'm not trying to hurt you." You raised your voice in annoyance "Then why don't you talk to me? Do you think you can solve anything by keeping things to yourself? It's hurting me too!" Then I got angry "When the hell can I even talk to you? Huh, tell me! You're always with that boyfriend of yours!" You started to defend yourself "You could've just said to me! I have always time for you. Instead of talking to me about your problems you're running away like a coward!" "Oh yes indeed. You have time for me but only thing you even what to talk about is you and "oh so lovely" boyfriend of yours! So why the hell do you think I'm not talking to you?!" I shouted angrily. Your eyes were almost burning because of anger "How to hell I'm supposed to know how you feel if you don't talk to me?!" I was shanking from the range of emotions that I was feeling. "Yes indeed. You have no fuckin idea how I feel about you. Because you're just focusing yourself. You don't even pay attention to others around you! Can't you see how I'm hurting because of you!" Your eyes were watering while you shouted "How the hell I'm hurting you right now?" "Because Wheein, I love you! I've always had but you're too blind to see that! That's why you are hurting me!" Your eyes widened in surprise and your voice came of as whisper "I didn't know" I threw my head back and chuckled bitterly "Of course you didn't. I'm so used to it" "Taehyung... I'm sorry" You started but I cut you of "No don't be. I was the foolish one thinking you would feel the same way" You crabbed my hand "Don't say that..." But I just jerked my hand away from you. "Look Wheein, I don't need your sympathy or your apologies. Right now what I need is some alone time and distance from you" You were crying now. "Let's not talk about this right now. I think we both are too emotional for this kind of talk" Then I turned around not looking back. And just like that I left you crying to the garden. All I heard was your sobbing. "What a beautiful evening to get your heartbroken" I muttered bitterly as I made my way to home.

I was foolish. Of course you were hurt by me back then. But so was I. We were young and selfish. That was the first time that we ever had fought. But it wasn't the last either. Shaking my head I made my way out of the library to the bright sunlight and to the cold winter air. 

   

                                                                                                 Kim Taehyung aka the sweetheart