About Us

The Clousure

Today I saw you at the café. You were sitting with a young man. You were laughing at his joke. You had your head tilted back. And just by looking at you through the window I could hear you honey like laugh. And before I noticed I walked to the café. As I walked through the door, the small bell rang. Terrified I looked at your way, but you were too focused on the menu in front of you. I smiled, you had your tongue sticked out, like always when you were concentrating hard enough to something. I was snapped back to reality by the young man behind the counter said "What can I get for you sir?" I was startled, but I managed to order citron tea. I don't even like citron tea, but I ques it reminded me of you. Like everything does now days.

It's kind of ironic how this is the same café where we had our first date. This is the same café where our closure happened. The bittersweet memories flooded my mind.

You were sitting in the table near the window. You were looking through the window when I arrived. Your both hands were holding the cup on the table. I sat in front of you. You slowly turned to me and smiled sadly. I gave you same kind of sad smile back. "It's good to see you" I said. You just nodded and looked to your hands, which were trembling. "Why did you want to see me?" You asked lifting your head from your hands. "I just wanted to make sure you were doing fine" You cracked a smile "And I wanted to clear thing between us. You know, we aren't the type of people who can just walk out and pretend that nothing happened. So I thought that it would be good for both of us to clear things up" You nodded again "This time don't pour anything on me please?" You smiled "No promises" You said winking. We both laughed for a while until those laughs faded and our faces were flooded with sadness. I swallowed and gathered myself so I could ask. "In the end we saw this coming, didn't we?" I said jokingly and you gave me the sweetest, yet the saddest smile I ever had seen. "I ques so" For a moment we were just sitting in the silence. It was weird silence. It was comforting, yet so suffocating. "I'm sorry" I managed to whisper. You shook your head "Don't be. We both are in the fault here" Again the silence surrounded us. You looked to your hands. "So where are you moving?" I asked. "I'm planning to move to New York permanently." I nodded. I opened my mouth to ask you about your stuff in our apartment when you suddenly asked "How did we come to this?" "What?" I asked confused. "In this situation. Why?" You looked up and now I noticed that tears were rolling down your cheeks "Why?" You asked but this time your voice broke and your eyes were filled with sadness. Seeing you like that broke me even more. And before I noticed tear were rolling down my cheeks too. "I don't know" I managed to whisper as I took your hand in to mine. I gave it a assuring squeeze. "I'm so sorry." I said again "I'm sorry too." You took your hand of mine and wiped your tears. "It hurts so much because I loved you so much. So fucking much, but this is for the best." I nodded as you continued "You hurt me, but as much as I want to blame you, I hurt you too. We hurt each other to the point of breaking. And as much as I love you, I think I have to let you go. Not for my sake but for sake of you too" You closed your eyes not being able to continue. The tears were rolling down your cheeks again. I tried to swallow my tears away. "I agree with you. We both are hurt right now and in order to move on we have to let each other go. But please always remember that I loved you and always will." You opened your eyes and I continued my voice shaking "Please be happy" You nodded again and stood up. You smiled. It was the sweetest yet the saddest smile I've ever seen. "This is the goodbye I ques. Please be happy" You said. The you turned around and walked to the door not looking back. When I saw you leaving, my mind went blank. My vision was blurred by my tears as they rolled down my cheeks down to my lap.

That was the last time I saw you before stumbling you here in the exact same café. I smiled to that bittersweet memory as I saw you walking out of the café with the man. You clinged to his arm and laughed. I felt like I was tearing up again. I shook my head as I stood up from my seat. I walked out of the door and looked you and the man. "I ques you found your happiness" I said. For a moment I smiled at your back before walking away from you and the café.

Kim Taehyung aka the sweetheart