Forgiving Mr. Alpha

Coma II

River's POV

Today is the day. Today is the day they are going to kill my mate. The girl I love. I can't believe I was so stupid and let her go! She is the most amazing girl I had ever met and I let her go. If it wasn't for me, we probably wouldn't be in this situation! If I had made her leave, she would still be alive and well. I shouldn't have let her fight with me. 

I love her.

I love her with everything in me. I don't want to let her go. I can't! But they won't let me stop it. I may be Alpha but...I am overruled. Even my beta said I should let her go. How can I let my other half go?! I'd rather kill myself than let her go. My beautiful Aria. When she left me the night I rejected her...I realized my mistake. When she walked out that door I felt my world shatter. Everything in me died. The whole time she was gone I stayed faithful even though I had rejected her. I didn't want anyone but her. I don't know hwy I rejected her. I guess it was my ego. I didn't think she was Luna material. But when she stood up to me, I realized she was. And I still let her go and told her to get out. I shouldn't have said anything. I ruined everything with her.

When she returned I thought I had a chance. Maybe I could make amends and make her love me again. I still loved her. I would die for her. And instead I killed her. I is all my fault. I should have protected her! I should have done something but I didn't! Now I am going to lose her. The only person that could ever make me happy. The only person that could ever truly love me for all our lives. I am going to lose the person who I love. The person I want to hold in my arms every night and wake up to every morning. I am going to lose Aria!

"Alpha, it's time. Are you going to say goodbye?" Asks one of the Omega's.

"Of course I am going to say goodbye!" I snap and she bows her head.

"Sorry I questioned it Alpha." She said in a submissive voice.

"No, I am sorry. I shouldn't have snapped at you." I say and she nods and walks out. I follow her into the hall.

Everything seems surreal. Everything goes in slow motion and it blurs through my tears. I am about to lose her. 

We make it to her room and I feel like all my senses are on fire. I look at her. She looks like she is sleeping. Her beautiful face is still and calm. She looks so amazing, even in a coma. I feel a little part of me die as I look at her. I am about to lose her. 

I walk up to her and grab her hand. She has a few IV's coming out of them. I look at my beautiful mate. Her long eyelashes cover her closed eyes. I wish her eyes would open and look at me. I wouldn't care if she rejected me as long as she was alive! Talking and walking. She may be alive but she isn't living. Her body is so still it kills me.

"Aria...I am so sorry I let this happen to you. If I could go back and change it I would. I don't want to let you go. I love you, Aria. I love you so much it hurts and I don't want to do this to you. I want you to come back and hate me. I would do anything to make you open those amazing eyes of yours or even move you delicate finger." I brush my fingers over hers and mesmerize the feeling of her hands in mine. The feeling is foreign but it feels so natural.

"I am letting you go because everyone tells me it's the right thing to do. Even your parents. The doctor says you are in pain and even the thought of you in pain kills me! They say that my judgment is wrong because of how much I love you and I guess they are right... I love you, Aria...Goodbye." I lean down and press my lips to her soft ones. Sparks fly throughout me and my tears fall onto her tan skin. I want her to respond; to kiss me back. In the back of my mind I know she won't but there is still that part of me that wants her to. 

I pull away and my wolf begs me to stop and to trust that she will come back.

'She's not coming back boy. She is gone.'

'No! We can't just kill her! She is our mate! If you love her you won't do this!' 

My wolf's words cut into me like a blade. I did love her. That is why I am doing this. Before I could change my mind I did it.

"Cut it off." I said and walked out. Every step killed me and I wanted to die. I was crying and I didn't care who see. I just lost her. I lost my Aria. 

I'm done.

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A/N

Hello everyone! So sorry for the late update!

Yes, I have decided to continue writing this book. I feel like I am not at an end with it. :)

I hope you liked this chapter.

We all know she isn't dead because I mean...what would this book be without her? Haha.

I have two ways I could go with this and I don't know which one to choose. 

ARGH! 

Conflicting!

Oh well, I'll choose soon.

Thanks for sticking with me! :)

-Kat-