Forgiving Mr. Alpha

Confession

This chapter may be a little triggering for people struggling with sutting and suicide. If you believe that it may set you off, please do not read!!! We like having every last beautiful person in this world. No one would ever want to lose you! Read at your own risk. I have been clean for 6 months now so if any of you need help, don't hesitate to conact me! I am here for each and every one of you! I hope everyone likes this chapter! :D 

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I looked at everyone watching me and River as he held my naked body in his own.

"Everyone leave!" He growled. Everyone bowed their head and left the room closing the door behind them. I sat there sobbing in his arms.

"What happened?" He asked me.

"I-I was in the shower. He was in my room! I don't know how he got in! H-he took the towel off me. He kissed me everywhere. Oh God! Oh my God!" I began to hyperventilate as I sobbed into his chest.

"He'll never touch you again. We made sure of that tonight."

"I'm a murderer..."

"No!" He pulled my face back to look him in the eyes. "You fought for your well being."

"I could've stopped and let you take him to the chambers. But..I-I killed him!" I sobbed even harder into River's chest.

"If you didn't, I would've. That bastard deserved to die." Somehow, his words calmed me and made me feel less awful. I turned to look at Ryan's dead body but River turned my head towards him.

"Don't look at him. It'll just make it worse. Look at me." His eyes searched mine and I felt myself being swept away into his. Suddenly, I realized I was naked and I tried to cover myself up with my arms.

"Don't hide your body from me!" River snapped and my arms dropped. His eyes raked my body with pure delight and I realized my bum was sitting right where it shouldn't be. But I didn't move.

"Never hide your beautiful body from me, Aria. It is mine and mine only." River murmured into my ears and my wolf purred with delight when she felt something under us. I stood up quickly and grabbed my towel, trying to avoid looking at the dead body next to us.

"River, could you have his body disposed of and someone to clean the blood. And here is a towel. I don't want anyone to see you like that." I regretted the words the instant they came out of my mouth.

"Oh really, would you be perhaps... jealous if they saw me like this?" I felt my eyes widen and I tried to keep my eyes focused on his face and no where else.

"N-no." I stuttered out. His sexy smirk reached his perfect face as he began to stalk towards me. I was fighting against my wolf at this moment, trying to keep her under control.

'Come on! Let me out to play with our big boy.' She just had to think nasty. Finally River was face to face with my with his arms around my waist and something at my stomach.

"I think you're lying. I also think you're fighting you wolf right now because mine is fighting me. He wants to claim you so badly. He wants to make sure everyone knows you're ours." He said. Something about those words sent my stomach doing backflips and my heart racing. My wolf was scratching at me begging me to give in but I didn't I held my ground with a not-so-firm fist.

"N-no...Not a-at all." I lied ever so smoothly. River's smirk grew deeper and his eyes held dangerous look.

"Why won't you let us mark you, Aria. We want to make sure nothing ever touches what's ours again!" His gripped tightened but not so much that it hurt.

"Because, I still haven't forgiven you yet."

"Why haven't you forgiven me yet, Aria? I just want you to love me!"

"You thought I wanted Ryan to do what he did to me! You called my names you looked at me like I was worthless. You didn't even listen to me until after you broke my heart! You rejected me with no mercy and made fun of me in front of the whole pack! And you expect me to forgive you in the drop of a hat! Well, that's not how life works!"

"I thought mates were suppose to understand!"

"Only when it benefits you!" I yell as loud as I possible can. I saw the hurt and worry in his eyes as he bows his head. I saw tears at the brim of his eyes and I heard my heart crack in pain.

"I want to forgive you. But I still don't know if you are going to turn around and hit me in the face with it."

"I would never do that."

"But you hurt me far more than anyone has. I cried for a long time, River. I had to keep my head held high when I left. But after...the girls had to stop killing myself." I showed him my wrists and his eyes widened when he saw the vertical lines on my wrists.

"Aria! I-I-"

"I wanted to die because of what you did. It took the whole time I was gone to heal. I am still hurting because of what you did. What you did to me, a mate should never do. You said to leave. I didn't care if you took it back because you said it. And you are a person who says what he means."

"Aria, I don't know why I did what I did. I really don't. I didn't sleep with any girls when you left. I didn't flirt or kiss. Nobody compared to you. I knew you would come back because you said you would. I needed you when you were gone. I had to run a pack but I could barely hold myself together! I wanted you and I hurt myself because I sent you away. I am a person who says what he means. But that night...nothing I said was what I meant. I don't know what happened, but it did. I can't take it back. I can't fix it. I can't undo the hurt I gave to you. And I can cover up these with all my love." He says and touched my wrists. I know that. But I want a chance to make it up to you. Not through kissing or sex or anything like that. But with fun trips to a waterpark and dress shopping. I just... just want to show you how much I have changed and how much I need you with all of my heart." I looked into his teary eyes and I realized I was sobbing myself. My wolf was begging me to hold him. And this time, I willingly trapped him in my arms. We were both naked, but it didn't feel awkward to have our skin together as if we were one.

I head his heart accelerate when my head touched his chest. His arms made there way around my torso and I could feel his smile in my hair. And for that moment, I could feel myself cry with tears of joy for the first time in my life. Everything felt like it was coming together. I know I haven't accepted him, but I couldn't be more happy for his sincerity.

"I love you, Aria." I stayed silent and let the words sink in. My heart was flying but my brain kept denying. I had trained it so well that now it was working against me.

"I know you're not ready. So don't say anything yet. I just wanted you to know." He said and kissed the top of my head.

Everything just felt right.

A/N

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