OH MY GOD, are you PREGNANT?

Don't let this change how you think

THIS IS A PRE-WARNING THAT THIS CHAPTER  CONTAINS AND TALKS ABOUT A MATURE/SERIOUS SUBJECT, THIS IS ALSO A TRIGGER WARNING THAT THIS CHAPTER TALKS  ABOUT SEXUAL ASSAULT SO PLEASE KNOW THIS BEFORE YOU READ.

THIS CHAPTER MAINLY CONTAINS MENTION OF SEXUAL ASSAULT SO IF YOU CANNOT/DO NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE READING ABOUT SUCH TOPICS, PLEASE SKIP THIS CHAPTER, I WILL MAKE BE DOING A RECAP AT THE START OF THE NEXT CHAPTER SO YOU STILL UNDERSTAND THE OTHER STORYLINES.

AN: Also by the way, I think that Emma would look similar to Andy from Station 19 so if you were wondering how Emma looks then, here.

We as people, sometimes believe that we can know and understand how those close to us feel, we know them, we sometimes have to study them in order to figure it out, study their expression, look into their eyes, or even study their body language, if you're that good. We believe that then, we know how they're feeling or what they're thinking about. You may not notice it, but every time we walk into a room to talk, watch or even kiss someone, we study them, whenever we see someone whom we care about, we study them. Not usually in a strange way, just to make sure that they are okay. The ways that we let out how we feel are called "signs". While we believe we can "know how someone is feeling", some people have learnt to hide these "signs", it could be the way they are, and over time they can get really good at hiding them, to the point where it comes easy, it's just the way they live. So in reality, we really don't have any idea someone is feeling.

I sat in the chair beside Emma's bed, she had just asked me if I was ready to hear what had happened to her, 'of course I'm ready' I thought when she asked me. 

~(Emma's POV)~

I looked over at Meredith as I was about to tell the one thing that I hadn't told anyone before, but I could tell her, I was safe as she said earlier, and I trusted her. I sat there for a little longer, but Meredith was very patient. I thought to myself, going over everything that had happened the night before, tears rolled down my face as Meredith tilted her head and looked at me sympathetically, "okay" I said once again

~(Meredith's POV)~

I lifted my head, knowing she was going to start, she had tears in her eyes. 

"Last time I came in here, I was pregnant 12 weeks." Emma explained, I nodded remembering the last time Emma had came into the hospital. "After I was discharged out of the hospital, I went back to work, as anyone else would. One of my cases was a lady who was 27 weeks pregnant, really nice lady and her husband, she had been complaining about headaches, which I assumed were from pregnancy" she looked down shaking her head. "I discharged her that night, the headaches were gone. But the next day... she was in the ER complaining of really bad headaches, so I ordered a head CT and paged neuro. Later, I got paged to the CT and she was seizing. By the time I had got there she was gone, I made a decision to try and save the baby too but it was too late for him" Emma took a deep breath and so did I, remembering my own miscalls. "I had to go out and tell her husband that his wife and baby were dead, he slapped me, saying it was all my fault, that if I had got a head CT when they came in the first time, this never would have happened". I re positioned myself in my chair as she continued, "that was 3 weeks ago. Last night, someone came into my house, knocked me unconscious. When I woke up I was tied to a harness, surrounded by pillows. I screamed and screamed and screamed. Someone said that no one would hear me, it was the patient's husband, his name was Harry. I asked him why I was there, and the sentence that came out of his mouth was horrible". There were a lot of tears streaming down her face, I could tell that she didn't want me to say anything so I just sat there, "he looked right into my eyes, he said that I was going to give him a child, that he was going to impregnate me. I looked at him absolutely disgusted, then telling him that he couldn't do that. He got angry, violent, started yelling at me telling me that he could do whatever he wanted. Once he stopped I told him he couldn't because I was already pregnant. He walked away, then walking back soon after with a tablet" she took another deep breath, stopping to think a little "I asked him what he was doing, he told me that he was going get a doctor to come and give me an abortion because it wasn't his baby. I screamed even more but he just sat there. A couple hours later someone came to the door, he went to answer it, while he was gone I tried to get out, tried to figure out how to run away, but before I could, he came back by himself. He took everything off, moving me to a operation table he had, tying me down."Emma stopped again to think, I understood how hard it was, I told her that "I know this is hard, we can take a break if you want"she nodded, I left the room because I had been getting paged the whole time and I had to get out of that dark room.

I sat in the cafeteria, it was only 11:00 so not a lot of people were in there, I just needed to think about everything, remembering how lucky I was, 'the world is horrible' I thought, putting my head on the table. "Hey, Mer are you okay?" Cristina asked, waking me from my thoughts, I closed my eyes, scoffed "No, my patient is a sexual assault victim" she looked at me with wide eyes "oh, how bad is it?" I shock my head "it's pretty horrible, god people!" I ranted. Cristina got paged "sorry I have to-""it's fine, go" I was left to sit alone again. I paged Derek to meet me in an on-call room. 

"Mer, are you okay? The page seemed urge-"I kissed him, pushing my lips into his, we parted and I embraced him "I missed you, today's a hard day", we sat down on the bed "Emma, the one you treated. She's a sexual assault victim" Derek's ocean blue eyes looked at me "I'm sorry Meredith, it must be hard for her" "yeah, I bet it is. I'm grateful that I'm safe, that this sort of thing has never happened to me", he put his arm around me and rubbed it. I got a page from Emma so I ran out "I love you" he yelled after me.

I walked into Emma's room, "you're ready?" I asked her "yes" she plainly answered. "The doctor came down, doing it all, but I couldn't protest or Harry would hit me, so I just sat there as the doctor took away my baby" Emma glanced up at the ceiling and then to me, then closing her eyes "later, once I was back in my spot, Harry walked up to me, he cut the crouch of my pants off as well as my panties, he took off his pants and then explained to me that he was going to fuck me until I was carrying his child. That once I was pregnant, he would ensure that his baby was healthy, if I were to miscarry his child, he would hit me and then we would try again, until it worked. I would stay there until his child was born, the baby would be born naturally, no drugs, no surgery, he then stated that after his child was born that he might let me leave". "He grabbed me, making sure I wouldn't move, then inserting himself into me, and I couldn't fight back or he would-""hit you" I completed her sentence and she glanced at me, nodding. "He did it, he went upstairs and I fought myself out of the harness, grabbing his phone and calling 911, hanging up after 10 seconds so they could track my location. I pull myself back into the harness as if nothing happened at all. The police arrived they took him away, they brought me here", she finished, taking a deep breath out. I thought about her story, walking out of the room to tell the police but before I left she told me; "don't let this change how you think of me, I'm still a surgeon, a strong woman, don't let what I just told change how you look or think of me" I turned to her, "what you just told me, didn't change how I think of you, it made me believe that you're extremely strong" Emma smiled at me as I walked out, approaching the police and telling them her story, I looked over at Emma and she smiled at me 'what an extremely strong woman'.

AN: First of all I would just like to thank everyone who reads this, for their support and comments on the previous chapters. Right now, writing has been a very good resource for me to spend time on. I enjoy writing and this story means a lot to me. I hope that the sexual assault storyline did the topic justice, I believe that in order to be a good writer, you need to try things that are difficult for you, things that you wouldn't choose to write about usually, but I honestly believe that this storyline is wayy more then just an opportunity for me to try something new. It is a storyline that needs to be talked about more and it could start here.

Next chapter there will be a little recap, for those who choose to skip this chapter. We will also be having a little bit of a time jump because, I don't know about you but I'm excited for the baby to be born, so yeah. It won't be a huge jump maybe just 2 months. So yah.. I hope everyone's families are healthy and doing well, I love you all so much byeeee!

 xxxemilee