Thorn in my side

Never Good Enough

Violet's POV

I was in a deep peaceful sleep when suddenly I heard the dreaded sound of an alarm going off.

"Ugh, shut up." I groaned reaching for the alarm with my eyes closed as I had a slight hangover and all I wanted to do was fucking sleep. I couldn't find the alarm but thankfully the noise stopped. I readjusted myself in bed and began to snuggle into whoever was holding me. Wait, why was someone holding me. I slowly opened my eyes and groaned as the harsh light from outside wasn't doing my headache any favors.

"You alright there, babygirl?" Roman asked looking at me as he held me against him.

"Did we uh you know?" I asked looking at him as we were both completely naked in bed and I couldn't remember much from last night.

He chuckled and kissed my forehead." No Vi', we didn't fuck. Although you were quite persistent about doing so." He teased.

"In my defense I was drunk, I don't even remember falling asleep here." I replied.

"After we went swimming, I helped you shower and then tucked you into bed." Roman said.

"So what I'm hearing is you wanted me in bed with you." I countered.

"What I wanted was to take care of you to make sure you didn't do anything stupider than usual." He replied.

"Like sleep with you." I said and he rolled his eyes.

"The only thing that stopped that was me, your hands were all over my dick. You literally pouted because I said no." He said with a smirk.

"Wow drunk me really is stupid." I joked.

"Oh shut up, let's not act like sober you doesn't want me right now. Your ass is literally against my dick." He countered.

"Oh so that's what's poking me." I teased as suddenly there was knocking on the door and I softly groaned as the sound made my head throb." Go away!" I said loudly and closed my eyes snuggling back into Roman wanting to go back to sleep but someone opened the door anyways so I opened my eyes again.

"Someone isn't a morning person, hungover sweetheart?" Dean asked.

"No." I mumbled.

"Mhm sure, is that why you're hiding from the sunlight?" Dean asked.

"No its because I'm pale and burn easily." I countered.

"What's up man?" Roman asked probably not wanting to hear me and Dean go back and forth all day.

"We need to get going man, we have to be at the PC in thirty minutes." Dean said.

"Alright, we'll be right there. Thanks brother." Roman said and Dean nodded then left." Come on sleeping beauty, we need to get ready." Roman said beginning to get out of bed.

"I don't wanna, I'm going to stay here." I replied.

"Vi', you have to go to training. Hungover or not. I told you not to drink that much." He said as he began to get dressed.

"I told you not to drink that much." I mocked and faced away from him then closed my eyes and snuggled back into the blankets. Suddenly I felt a harsh smack on my ass causing me to jump slightly.

"Out of bed, now." Roman said a bit more sternly as he was now dressed in basketball shorts and a muscle tee.

"I want to sleep." I said looking directly at him.

"If you don't get your ass out of bed, I will drag you out of it myself and dress you. Or you can be a good girl and get up yourself and get dressed. If you do that I'll go get you some coffee and something for your head." He said.

"Fine, fine. I'm getting up." I said rolling my eyes as I stretched my body out then slowly climbed out of bed. "Wait what am I supposed to wear?" I asked looking at him.

"I figured Seth's probably closest to your size so here's a pair of sweats and a shirt, I also recovered your bra from when you stripped." He said handing me a stack of clothes then kissed my forehead." I'll be right back with the coffee and medicine." He said and I nodded then he headed out the door.

Once he was gone, I began to get dressed with the clothes he provided me. Well I guess technically Seth provided them to me. I had no idea where my panties were so let's hope these sweats don't fall off me. After I got dressed, I went into the bathroom and borrowed Roman's brush to brush out my hair and put it in a messy bun.

Just as I finished Roman reentered the room holding a coffee in a to go cup and a bottle of ibuprofen.

"You are a lifesaver." I said taking the bottle from him and grabbing two ibuprofen then took them and took a long drink off coffee.

"Oh I know." He teased and I playfully rolled my eyes." Hey before we go, we need to talk Violet." He said in a bit more serious of a tone.

"About?" I asked while looking at him and took another sip of coffee.

"You can't ever let anyone know about what happened last night." He said.

"What do you mean? Nothing happened, you said we didn't sleep together." I said confused.

"We didn't. I mean no one can ever know I have you swimming naked in our pool and sleeping in my bed." He explained.

"Why? Am I not good enough for you?" I asked harshly.

"No, no its not about that at all Vi'. It's just we're training you and we help choose who moves on at the end of the month. And if anyone finds about this, they're going to assume you moved on because we favor you." Roman explained.

"Sure Ro', it has nothing do with the fact I'm five years younger than you and a nobody who doesn't have a dollar to her name." I said." It's not like we're fucking together, we're nothing serious. But if it'll give you peace of mind, then whatever the hell this is. Consider it over." I said and began walking out the door but he grabbed my arm gently.

"Violet you know it has nothing to do with your age or upbringing. It's not for my peace of mind it's for yours. If anyone knew about us, you'd suddenly be bombarded by news outlets and reporters. Everywhere you go, would be like what happened to us at the Cheesecake Factory. Do you really want that? Or do you want the first time you're breaking headlines to be when you sign a developmental contract?" Roman asked.

"There is no us, Roman. You've made that abundantly clear today. Now let me fucking go." I said taking my arm out of his grasp and began to walk away again.

"Wait at least let me give you a ride, Vi'." Roman said with a heavy sigh looking hurt.

"I'll call an Uber, I'm not your problem anymore. After all, wouldn't want to chance us being seen together." I spat as I practically ran out of their house and called an Uber.

I knew it was a mistake getting close to Roman, I don't know why I let myself believe he'd ever be interested in a girl like me. We were from two different world. This morning definitely taught me that. The fact he even thought I'd tell anyone about what's happened between us is insulting. I don't go around gossiping about my personal life. But I guess that goes to show you, he didn't know me at all.

I mean hell he basically called me his dirty little secret. I'm no ones fucking secret. I spent my whole life living in the shadows and constantly being judged. I didn't need anymore judgement in my life. I am who I am, simple as that.

Thankfully the Uber arrived rather quickly and I climbed in. I was still going to go to training today, hell I wasn't going to let Roman or anyone get in the way of my free housing and money I was planning on winning. From now on though, our relationship was going to be strictly professional. That's what he wanted after all, so that's what he was going to get. See I can be nice.

My phone began to ring in my pocket and I pulled it out to see it was Roman calling. I hit decline call then muted my phone and slid it back in my pocket. I had enough of hearing what he had to say for the day.