Hey guys. I know waiting for that last chapter has been agonizing and filled with suspension. I need to take a break from writing for a little bit. I don't know how long it will take but I just can't write anything at the moment. I had some very traumatic memories resurface earlier today and that's when I decided I needed to take a break. I'm about to be out of high school in a few weeks, twelve school days to be exact, and it's causing a lot of stress and anxiety for me. I know everyone has been looking forward to each chapter I post but right now I just can't. I have so much going through my head right now and if I could put it into words it would probably be a whole book or something. I will still be on wattpad and stuff I just won't be writing or posting really.
You guys have been pretty good to me with this book. I know Geraskier isn't really a big ship or maybe this book just isn't that good but at least some people enjoy it, right? Thank you for reading this book, all of you. You're the reason I kept pushing to write another chapter when my head would get to me. This time I'm just not strong enough to push back, no matter how hard I've been trying. Sometimes the thoughts win over me and that's okay, I just need to remember that I don't always have to be strong. I need to remember a lot of things, like how people love me and care about me. I need to remember that I'm not a burden or annoying or in the way. I need to remember so many things and sometimes it just gets hard. I'm trying though, and that has to count for something, right? Anyways, I just need to take a breather, get away from the writing for a bit and collect myself. It might take days or weeks maybe even a month but no matter how long it takes me to feel better I'll come back to this story and I'll give you guys a finished story. I'll do everything in my power to make sure Jaskier gets his sunshine back and Geralt gets a found family he deserves. I promise I will finish this story, no matter how long or short it will be I'm going to get better and I'm going to finish it. I know you can't fix mental health overnight and I know it's going to be a while but I trust you guys can be patient and I trust I can be strong enough to get through this rough patch.
I love you guys, even though I don't know you I love you all. Your comments have made me smile and feel appreciated and needed. You guys don't realize how much you've already helped me. When I first found this site in middle school, five years ago just about, I wasn't expecting to find such a caring and loving community. I wasn't expecting to get so many comments and likes and just adoration for my writing. I've always thought my writing was horrible, that my stories didn't make much sense at all but you guys keep on reading and that keeps me going. This community saved me two years ago, when I was at rock bottom. Someone saw a story I wrote and called someone to help me. I probably would have died that night if nobody said anything. I probably would have never lived to meet my current significant other and I probably wouldn't have made it this far in life if you guys didn't help me. If my eighth grade self could see me right now she would be surprised. She'd probably ask me why we kept on and I would tell her it's because of this community. I always believed I would never make it out of high school. That I would disappear once I graduated. And yet here I am, 18 and about to graduate in 12 days. I have a lover and a job and people who care about me. If eighth grade me could see what we've become I think she would be proud. I wish I could change what I went through, change the trauma and fear and sadness I suffered through. I wish I could change so much but if I did change anything I wouldn't be who I am now. I'd be someone else and you probably wouldn't have known I ever existed.
I hope you guys all keep doing well, especially during this pandemic. I hope everyone stays healthy and even though I'm suffering right now I'll always be here for people who need it. My inbox is always open and I would do whatever I could do help you feel better. I might even understand something you're going through. I once again promise I'll come back to this book when I get better and when I do I'm going to try and make it one of the best fucking books you've ever read.
Stay safe, happy and healthy and I'll always be here to help you
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Waiting On Your Lips |Geraskier High School AU| COMPLETED
FanfictionJaskier is a nobody. He is often pushed to the side, ignored and forgotten. Nobody wants to be near him most of the time because of one little slip up in freshman year. Because of this he is always alone, barely even fitting into the club he joined...
