Our Twisted Story

1. Promise

"Eli"
"Good morning, princess" - Mom

"Morning mom, what's with you? Why you're in my room early in the morning? Are you high or something?"

Habang papikit pikit pa ang mata ko dahil sa antok *sigh*

"Eli, I know you're already a young lady, but where did you get those words? High? Anong high high! I didn't raise you with that attitude of yours" Mom

Nakakairita ang boses niya ang aga aga para nanamang machine gun yung bibig niya, hays

"Lemme guess, you're gonna be out of town... again, for business and all" malumanay na sabi ko

Si Mom kase ay isang kilalang Lawyer, si Dad naman ay may sariling kumpanya mga kumpanya around Asia. It involves making, importing and exporting (guns, bombs, furnitures, tiles, mirrors,) Iba-iba. Di ko nga akalain na ganon kadami ang business ni Dad yung isa nga sa negosyo niya is sila Kuya ang nag aasikaso though nag aaral pa sila paminsan minsan sila na ang umaattend ng meetings and humaharap sa mga potential clients. Para silang working student but they have their advantage dahil hawak nila ang sariling oras nila.

She didn't answer me and just directly look at me in the eye with her sharp gray eyes, she seems really guilty and hurt. I knew it they're gonna leave me all alone again. It's been like this for the past 15 years.

"I'm used to it mom, we're rich and all but we lack with love and attention, please just close that goddamn door and leave me here peacefully, or better yet don't ever come back. Ganon lang din naman e, everytime I look at every corner of this mansion, I never had a best memory with this family. Sabagay, who the hell I am to all of you? I'm just your daughter" sabi ko ng nakatingin ng deretso sa kaniyang mata.

At sa pagkakataon iyon yung nanay kong alam kong malakas at matatag ay biglang nawala at nanghina. All I ever see is her transparent eyes. Tears fell in her eyes, intuloy-tuloy. Yung parang wala ng bukas. Na guilty tuloy ako. Lalo na nung niyakap niya nalang ako.

"Sorry princess, hindi kita anak lang. You're my daughter and Iloveyou, this is for all the three of you. Promise we will make it up to you. Your dad and I will settle things then we will plan our family trip. You badly want to go to States right? For the meantime, fix your papers and schedule so that if everything is settled were all good to go. Mag sasama-sama tayo like the old time I promise" sabi ni Mom

Family trip, sama-sama, promise. This is why I hate promises, my family used to promise things. You will hope and wait, but in the end hindi naman nila tutuparin ang mga sinabi nila. Aanhin naman naming magkakapatid ang napakalaking bahay, 6 digit na allowance, expensive cars and any other luxurious things without the love and attention of our parents? Mas gugustuhin ko pa ngang maging mahirap basta makasama ko lang sila. Yung katamtamang pamumuhay lang, nakakakain ng tatlong beses sa isang araw pero buo. Nakakakain ng sama-sama sa hapag, nagtatawanan, at paminsan-minsan nag aasaran at nagkakatampuhan kagaya ng normal na pamilya. Hindi ganito, I almost have everything pero damang-dama ko na may kulang, yung parang walang wala parin ako despite of the things I have. And it's all worthless to me.

"I don't need your promises mom, kayo po ang kelangan ko kayo nila Dad, dati naman kahit sobrang busy niyo nagsasama sama naman tayo. We used to eat breakfast and dinner altogether. Pero this past few years ni hindi tayo nagkikita-kita. What's the use of this huge mansion? Why have big house, If can't even call it my home" nalulungkot na sabi ko.

"Yes anak I know, I'm really sorry babawi kami. Iloveyou" hinalikan niya lang ako sa noo at lumabas na ng kwarto ko.

Nahagip ng mata ko yung orasan, 6:00 in the morning na pala. I wonder if who among my brothers will take me to school. Kahit papano at least nakikita ko ang isa sa kanila every morning. Tumayo na ako sa kama ko at dumeretso na sa Cr ko para makaligo na at makapag-ayos.