Forcedly Yours [Completed]

Chapter 36

Following our Singapore trip, Leyton and I went to Switzerland and stayed there for four days. He had to meet a business associate and he also refused to leave me, so I went with him.

Pag-uwi namin galing Switzerland ay agad na binuhos ko ang atensyon sa garden ko. Nakakatuwa na siyang tingnan ngayon kasi mas dumami na ang mga kalabasa, talong, repolyo at carrots ko. Habang nasa loob naman ng greenhouse ang mga cucumber, tomatoes at iba pang heat-loving veggies.

Mas lalo pa akong ginanahan na alagaan ang mga gulay ko nang nakilala ko si Jen na siyang nagtuturo sa amin sa cooking class. May sinusuportahan kasi siyang orphanage at home for the aged kung saan napupunta ang mga niluluto namin. I decided to give all my produce to the facilities.

'Yon ang ginawa ko sa sumunod na tatlong buwan. Kada harvest ko ay doon na mapupunta ang mga gulay ko. It's not much because my garden is not that big, but I know it will help and feed them. Isa pa, mas okay na kumain sila ng gulay dahil importante 'yon sa katawan.

Leyton told me he was happy to know that I am enjoying and helping people but he also said in a moody tone that he didn't want me to tire myself and that he would hire another gardener to make sure.

I couldn't be more happier with my relationship with my husband. I was surprised to see how patient and understanding he can be these past few months. At kahit na hindi ko sya mapagbigyan sa lahat ng oras kapag nag-aaya siya, nirespeto niya naman na pagod ako. But I also didn't say no all the time. May obligasyon pa rin ako sa asawa ko. What made me happy was his ability to compromise with me.

Mas lalo ko rin siyang nakilala. Leyton may be ill-tempered and moody but he is actually soft when it comes to me. When I feel stressed and needy, I would walk in his office and sit on his lap. Kahit pa may ginagawa siya, he never complained. Not once. Instead, he would wrap his arms around me and ask about my day.

Napangiti ako habang naalala ko 'yon.

Tinakpan ko ang huling tupperware ng niluto kong beef brisket para sa asawa ko. It's my very first time to bring food to him at his work. Sobrang naging busy ako netong mga nakaraang araw dahil nagharvest kami ng mga tomatoes, sayote at talong at pinadala 'yon sa orphanage at home for the aged. Leyton sulked a bit and jokingly said I love my vegetables more than him.

And so I decided to cook something and bring it to his office. I can't have him thinking I could possibly love anything more than him.

I smiled. My heart feels so full. When I miscarried, akala ko ma de-depressed ako. But I was stronger than I thought.

It was all about acceptance and believing that everything happens for a reason.

I texted Leyton's secretary to ask her not to let Leyton order anyhting for himself or go out for lunch. She agreed hesitantly. Syempre di naman ako ang boss niya. But she's been kind to me.

Matapos kong ilagay sa paper bag ang packed lunch ay umakyat na ako sa kwarto para maligo at magbihis. Sinuot ko ang isa sa mga binili sa akin ni Leyton sa Singapore na light blue thin-strapped maxi dress.

Dumating din galing sa Paris noong isang buwan ang mga binili sa akin ni Leyton 'nong show ni Silver. He bought almost everything that's colored blue.

I checked my face in the mirror and decided not to put any make up on. Naglagay lang ako ng sunscreen at lip and cheek tint. I smiled and touched my belly. Soon this will grow big. My last pregnancy gave me a lot of stress. But now, I feel glowing. Iilang beses lang din akong nagsuka. And I first thought it was due to stress.

I only found out this morning that I was pregnant right after Leyton went to work. I have been feeling off and my boobs felt heavier than usual. Dahil sa pagka-abala ko sa garden ko ay hindi ko din napansin na ilang buwan na akong hindi dinatnan.