maybe won't you take it back || b.e. fanfic

chapter five.

ade's pov

i've been out of the hospital for about two weeks now, and billie and i haven't been talking much. it's been really really fucking hard to keep in touch with her. of course billie couldn't stay with me for the whole week i was in the hospital and had to go home sooner than later.

while she was with me though, it was really amazing. even though we we're cooped up in my hospital room, we still made good use of our time together. we took pictures of each other with stupid snapchat filters, we told each other our life stories, talked about everything, and every night she sung me to sleep. i couldn't get enough of her voice. it was so angelic. so soothingly peaceful and pleasing.

if only there was a way that she could've stayed with me forever. the truth is, maybe i started to feel something for her. when it's just you and billie eilish together everyday for about four days straight, just talking, laughing, cuddling, it's hard to not get lost in her ocean eyes and not get caught up in her overwhelming beauty.

i was still hurt. and i missed carter, more than anything. it's been really hard on me, and hard on my mom and hope too. these stupid flashbacks keep on circling back up into my head. whenever i close my eyes all i see is him, that night. every night it haunts me and keeps me up and awake. i wake up every morning drenched in sweat, screaming and crying, wishing i was back in billie's arms once again.

billie eilish

i type into my instagram search bar. and of course she comes up, right away. so i follow her.

should i text her first? ugh, i don't know. she probably has already forgotten me by now. but a little sliver of me wanted to text her. wanted to tell her how i missed her. wanted to tell her how i wanted to see her. actually, a big sliver. a big sliver of me wanted that.

wherearetheavocados

is this ade? as in the one
from the hospital?

sure is. i missed you, eilish.

you missed me? imagine
how i've been feeling.

so i take that as you missed
me too huh big shot?

oh cmon now. you
know id be impossible
to not miss you.

pshh shut it. but anyways, we
need to hang. it's been too long

i agree mamas. let's
plan more tomorrow?
it's getting late <3

of course billie. wouldn't miss it
for the world. ttyl love ❤️

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wow. i never realized how great it was to be talking to billie. it was really just like a blessing in disguise. i'm so beyond happy that we have plans for tomorrow, i really missed seeing her. her ocean eyes. her soft, silky blue hair.

"who ya texting?" my nosy ass sister asks from across our shared room. she must've seen my smiling profusely at my phone.

"no one. mind your own fuckin business." i snap back.

ever since i've been home, after the.. incident.. i've only been leaving my room to eat and go to the bathroom. i stay all of my days just sleeping in my bed or crying in my bed. and now i finally am going to see the one person i really needed to see right now.

"hey mom," i say as i step out of my room and go into hers.

"yes honey?" my mom says as she radiates a wide smile.