maybe won't you take it back || b.e. fanfic

thirty seven

billie's pov

after two and a half years of love, breakups, and everything in between, i am finally marrying ade today. the love of my life. my better half. my reason.

she's given me everything and more, without her i don't even know where i'd be. i cant wait to officially start the rest of my life with my beautiful wife.

not to change the subject, but, last night after ade had fallen asleep, i'd taken a phone call with my manager. aannnddd.. he says we're going on tour! although i'm hella excited because i miss touring and i miss the fans, i'm also on edge because last time i toured things didn't go so well with ade and i.

and i got a text from an unknown number saying "see you in Seattle, bil. xx" at like 2 in the morning, but it's probably some asshole from my team trying to prank me. either way, i don't give a shit. it's nothing. at least i don't think it is.

"nope! don't come in here!" ade says from behind the door of the changing room at the alter. we'd both woken up a different times, taken different ubers, and are now getting ready in two different rooms so there is absolutely zero chance of us seeing eachother before we're officially married. we decided to have the wedding earlier in the morning so we can spend all day sight seeing and doing tourist shit as newly weds. oh yeah, and since no one else is gonna be there, i hired a professional photographer to capture the highlights of our wedding.

"take your time, baby." i say reassuringly through the door as i return to my dressing room. i decided to wear a suit that burberry designed, which, not to be cocky, but i look fine as fuck in.

as the time gets closer to her walking down the aisle, i stand nervously infront of the priest and the empty rows or seats. i look down at my hands to see a few of my rings, one of which being the engagement ring. then, the music starts to play and my heart skips eight beats at once.

the doors at the end of the red carpet open to reveal my very soon to be wife in a gorgeous, all while, cinderella type beat dress. as i look at her with the biggest smile on my face, i observe every detail as she walks in slow motion.

her makeup, it's gorgeous. i could never. not only does she of course not need makeup, but she really can pull of a full face a makeup as well. which i cannot. so props on that. her dress is long, thick, and wavy, a small floral pattern on the dress.

tears start to form in my eyes when i see her stunning face standing across from mine. her hair is braided with a flower in it, and her vail is soft and light. suddenly i feel very underdressed, even more than usual.

"you look gorgeous." i say softly as we hold hands, still facing eachother and soaking up every second.

"you look hot and fine as hell." ade says which makes us both laugh, even the priest chuckles.

the priest begins to talk, reading some verse from the bible about love or something. i don't know to be honest. he then asks us to read our vows, and we do so. i won't bore you with the exact words of our lengthy love letters within our vows, but by the time we had both finished we were in tears.

"do you, billie eilish, take ade smith, to be be your lawfully wedded wife?" he asks.

"i do." i reply, my smile never leaving.

"and do you, ade smith, take billie eilish, to be your lawfully wedded wife?" the priest asks as he turns towards ade.

"i do." she says.

"i now pronounce you wife and wife." he says soothingly, then stepping back.

our hands unite and our lips connect, transferring me into a euphoric like state of mind. smiles from ear to ear come across our faces as we walk out to the beach that's right outside alter, instantly running once we hit the sand.

ade picks up the train of her dress and i kick off my shoes while we run right in the water. being cute and laughing and shit. just how i imagined my wedding. as much as i'm afraid of the ocean, with ade by my side i'm not afraid of anything. waves come crashing while we splash eachother and the photographer stays a little while back but still taking plenty photos.
usually i would hate people to be taking pictures of us, but i defies the to keep these memories forever.

i pick ade up and hold her bridal style while we wade in the water, "so, mrs eilish, how does it feel to be married to the one and only billie eilish?" i ask jokingly.

"it feels fucking amazing." she says as we kiss in between our laughter and smiles.

the rest of the day we spend being tourists and never once letting go of eachothers hands.

we go on this sick helicopter ride that took us to a zip lining place. ade was pretty scared to do the zip lining, but we did it together anyways and it was fun as hell. we went to a small little town and did some shopping, went on a boat ride, swung on these cute ass swings for a bit, had dinner, and eventually found our way back to the villa late at night.

"my feet hurt so bad" ade says with a chuckle as she takes her heels off and walks over to the kitchen, pouring us both glasses of wine.

"thank you baby." i say as i pick up my wine glass and she does the same. we clink our glasses together and then start drinking from the cups.

"hey, i gotta tell you something." i say as i set down my glass.

"yeah?"

"i'm going on tour, and i'd like for you to go with. of course you don't have to, but if you want to i'd love for you to go." i say.

"billie, that's amazing! of course i wanna go!" she says as she smiles and wraps her arms around me, immediately all of my doubt and worry washes away.

"i'm so happy, it's gonna be so much fun." i add.

"i know how much you missed touring love. it's gonna be amazing." she says sweetly as she kisses my cheek.

we spend the next hour or so sitting on the couch, her on my lap as we talk about tour, life, our future and everything in between. even if we didn't talk and just sat there together, i'd be content. ade finally drifts off to sleep, so i take the opportunity to pick her up slowly and lay her on the bed.

"lemme get this big thing off of you babe." i say to her as she incoherently says something and lifts her arms up, giving me access to take unzip her dress. so, i unzip her dress then carefully fold it up and set it down on top of the suitcase on the floor. by the time i get one of my oversized shirts for her to sleep in, she's already asleep so i guess she wants to sleep in her bra and underwear tonight. not a problem for me.

i take off my suit and dress shoes, sighing with relief when i finally get changed into my pj's that feel way better than some showy suit. slowly i get into bed and under the covers with ade, and instantly she clings onto my body, putting her leg over my legs and wrapping her arms around my torso. i just smile at her cuteness and put my arms around her in response.

i see an opportunity to tease the fans and boast about being a wife, so i take it. quickly i take my phone off of the bedside nightstand and open up instagram. then, i take a selfie of ade and i cuddling me and flashing my wedding ring. i put the caption as;

"just got married in hawaii, wbu?💍"

and..... posted. now the whole world knows how in love i am with ade.

as i dose off, i think about today. i think about how today, i married the woman of my dreams. my other half. i know your tired of me gushing about my baby, so i'll just say this. no matter what, no matter the circumstances, there will always be that one person. and above all people, above all places, above all beings and objects, there will be that one feeling.

that's love. that feeling when you can't bare to be without someone. that feeling when you wake up and instantly think of them. that feeling when you only want to be with that one person for the rest of everyday until the end of your life. that one feeling that stops time. that one feeling that is inevitably indescribable, no matter how many words you use. and no matter what, love will withstand every test. and if you truly love someone, that person will never truly leave. you will always find eachother because love works in mysterious ways. and you will live and prosper and love them everyday because love is an endless unmatchable feeling. being in love is a reason to be alive. being in love is everything in the world and beyond. being in love is being with her. and that's all i need.