maybe won't you take it back || b.e. fanfic

chapter eighteen

ade's pov

this past year or so has been so so amazing and filled with happiness for both billie and i. billie's been working on the album and i've gone back to school and finished my senior year, earring my GED finally, which i was really proud of myself for. i never really had a desire to go to collage, and now that billie and i are so stable and happy together, i really have no reason to be going anywhere, school wise, for now. billie and finneas are honestly the most hard working people i know. they've been working so hard every day for the past year to produce the best music they can and it's honestly been so motivating and an amazing experience to see everything unfold right infront of my eyes.

and tonight, my baby finally lets the rest of the world experience this album and her and fin's talent.

"you look so cute baby." i say as i fix her louis Vuitton-pattern hat on her head. her fit for tonight is so fire. on the other hand, i was wearing a nice sleek-maroon colored dress that went to about halfway of my thighs, it was nothing fancy, but it was nice enough.

"and you look so damn sexy." billie said as she chuckled and put her hands around my waist, then pulling me closer and kissing me lips passionately.

"i think it's time to go love. you ready?" i ask as i pull back and hold her hand in mine.

"yep. i'm so excited, we've been working so damn hard and i love the album." billie said as her energy practically bounced off the walls.

"i know love, it'll be great." i say as i rest a hand on her cheek, and then we walk hand-in-hand out of her room and into a limo that's waiting for us outside of her house.

after about a ten minute drive, we finally arrive at the billie eilish experience opening night and we couldn't be more excited. i don't even have any words for how this is right now.

"hey finneas" billie said as she got out of the limo and hugged her brother, who was already at the BE experience, and I got out of the limo shortly after billie, greeting finneas, claudia, patrick, and maggie as well.

"we're gonna go look around and talk to everyone, love you!" billie said as she smiled and her family and then held her hand out towards me. i waved goodbye to everyone and then put my hand in billie's following her and staying glued to her hip. really the only people i know that'll be here tonight is drew and zoe, but besides that most of these people are other celebrities/artists and billie's friends.

"billie, this is amazing. everything about it." i said as i smiled and put my hand on her cheek.

"i know, i know." she said cockily.

"but lemme show you something you haven't seen yet." she said as she smiled and grabbed my hand, leading me into the "listen before i go" room. surprisingly, no one else was in the room.

just billie and i take a seat on the fluffy floor of while pillows and sheets as we watch the sky float and dance on the screens around us.

"this is what you wanted to show me? it's.. gorgeous." i say as i smile and rest my head on billie's chest. she runs her hands through my hair as she starts to bounce her leg, which she only does when she's really nervous.

"you alright bil?" i ask as i look up at her.

"yeah.." she says as she takes a deep breath.

"i've uhm, gotta ask you something." she says as she gulps and looks into my eyes.

"yes...?" i say wearily as i watch her reach for something in her pocket.

"i love you so much. and you make me so happy. you make me a better version of myself, and you complete me. i'd be so lost without you. this past year has been hard and stressful, but everytime i look at you it's like you ease everything i've got going on. and i don't want to ever wake up and not have you in my arms." she says as she clears her throat.

"so.." she reaches for her pocket and pulls out a small velvet box, she opens it and reveals an absolutely beautiful 2 carat diamond engagement ring.

"oh my god.." i say lowly as i gasp and a tear rolls down my cheek.

"will you.. marry me?" she asks as she smiles and giggles a little bit.

"fuck yes!" i say, probably a little bit too loud as i start to cry.

"aw don't cry baby" billie says as she chuckles and wipes my tears away, then putting the gorgeous ring on my left hand, leaving me speechless.

"billie.. it's gorgeous." i say in awe.

"yeah, my mom told me that you would like it." she says, which causes us both to laugh.

"now, just to let you know, it'll probably be a little over a year until we can actually get married, because of touring and work and everything. but this is to show you that i'm 100% committed to you and that i really do want to spend the rest of my life with you. forever and always." she says, which i nod in response.

"i love you." i say as we both stand up and i look into her ocean eyes that i can never get enough of.

"i love you too mamas." billie says as she smiles and plants a kiss on my forehead, then holding my hand as we walk out of the room together and return to the main event.

"billie, i need to talk to you. now." finneas says as he grabs onto billie's arm and pulls her aside. usually he isn't this.. urgent and aggressive, but he's her family so it's not really any of my business. as long as she's not getting hurt, which she isn't, then her family business is none of mine.

i continue to talk to some people that are crowded around, but my eyes can't help but wander over to billie and finneas every so often. finneas is explaining something and billie seems mad about it.

"i don't fucking care, finneas." billie says a little too loudly as she pushes past him and starts to storm off, but i excuse myself and go after her.

"billie, what's going on? you ok?" i ask as i grab her hand, preventing her from walking away from me, but she just rips her hand out of my grasp and turns to face me.

"no, i'm not okay. just go talk to someone or something. i gotta go deal with something." she says as she sighs and turns back around, walking off. i don't really understand what just happened, but i'm a little bit confused and maybe a bit hurt. i'm sure billie didn't mean anything by it, well i know she didn't mean anything by it, she just proposed to me for god's sake. but, i'm sensitive sometimes and her shutting me out just kinda.. well hurt.