maybe won't you take it back || b.e. fanfic

chapter six.

ade's pov

as much as i hate to admit it, i think i'm falling for billie. i really can't even believe i'm saying that. i mean, after my ex girlfriend, mia, i never thought i'd fall for someone again. when i met mia, i fell head over heels for her. we just.. were in love. or at least i was, the feeling wasn't mutual. she cheated on me. in my own house. i was kind enough to let her stay with me for a few weeks so she could have a break from her family and home life, and i come back from a long day of school to see her fucking another bitch in my bed. in my sheets. in my house. who the fuck even does that. but besides that, i gave her my everything. every ounce of myself, i gave to mia. and she crushed me.

i never really thought i would date someone again because it's just too risky.. or have feelings for someone. no matter what i do, or where i go, i still see mia like shes the only one in the world. even if she's not there, i spend the whole time wishing she was.

but ever since i met billie, it was like my heart shifted positions, and it was almost like mia was kicked out of my heart. before, it seemed as if my heart was beating for mia. now it seemed to be beating for itself. or maybe it's beating for billie..

"hey, you don't have to stay if you don't want to. i know your mom is probably worried." i say, not wanting her to feel like she has to stay.

"no, i want to. i mean if that's alright with you." she says.

of-fucking-course that's alright with me. it's more than alright.

"yeah, i'd really like you to stay." i say, looking up at her. she looks right back at me, our eyes locked onto eachother. staring into billie's eyes was like looking into a whole new galaxy. everything about it was magical, and soothing. gorgeous. astonishing. i don't even know how a simple gaze upon her eyes could make me feel this way, but it does.

"i'd like to stay, too." she says, moving in a bit closer and putting her hands ever so gently on my waist.

"is this 'right' , billie?" i ask, never breaking our eye contact.

"no. it's not, but isn't that the fun part?" she says teasingly with a smirk.

she wasn't wrong.

slowly i move in closer as well and put my arms around the back of her neck. before i could even take another breath, her lips move close and sync with mine. holy fuck. i'm kissing billie eilish. smoothly, billie pulls me closer to her by pulling my waist gently, and i'm pretty much right up against her as we stand in my purple room.

the kiss seemed to make the world stop. i could feel the electricity and passion run through my body and everything in the room. it seemed as if billie and i were floating in space, eternally kissing. if that makes sense and doesn't sound weird.

she swiftly turns me around and walks me over to my bed, never breaking the kiss. bil pushes me on to the bed and gets on top, straddling me.

"is this too much?" billie asks as she starts kissing my neck. it's like her touch and kiss was heaven sent.

"not at all." i say, kinda hoping to get more.

after about an hour of us making out to frank ocean, tyler the creator, and daniel caesar, we finally break the kiss and billie plops down next to me.

i cant help but break out in laughter, and to be honest i really don't even know why.

"what? why are you laughing at me? what's so funny?" billie asks, being scared she did something wrong.

"i just, can't believe we just did that. i'm so fucking lucky right now." i say, smiling uncontrollably, which results in billie smiling as well.

"me too. i mean, your just amazing. your so beautiful. everything about you. your hair flows so perfectly, it's like looking at a oceanic waterfall. your eyes.. i could just get lost in your eyes for days.." she takes a break to look me in the eyes.

"your hands as so soft and small, so.. holdable. your smile is like watching the sunrise on a warm morning. or like getting a hug from someone you love and miss. it's so warm and welcoming. and your personality. your fucking personality. it's so lovely. so lovable. you're hurt, and i don't know by who, but they're really missing out. the fact that you're hurting makes me want you even more. fuck. your just beyond words." she adds on in a single breath, her gaze never leaving my face as she speaks every word from the heart.

i have absolutely no words. did fucking billie eilish just say that to me? i thought she just thought i was pretty or something. she's always meeting a bunch of pretty girls, i was sure i just fell into that category. but what billie just said, how she said it, now i'm not so sure she thinks i'm just some pretty girl.

hopefully.

"bil.. do you really think that about me..?" i ask shyly as i blush like hell.

"of course, the fuck. why would i say that if i didn't mean it." billie said with a small laugh.

"i don't think your just some fine girl that i just so happened to meet. we didn't meet by coincidence, ade."

maybe billie's right. i mean, there has to be a reason on why this is happening. why we met. why we reconnected. everything happens for a reason, i just hope ours is a good one.

"i like you. like, like like you. when i look at you the world stops. all i see is you. your my thought when i wake up and before i go to bed. i know we've only known eachother for a few short weeks, but i cant keep you out of my head." i say as some tears roll down my cheeks.

"i feel the same way. i really, really like you." she says as she wipes the tear off of my cheek.
"but..."