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Liam Payne Imagine Part 1

So guys.., my friend wrote this and thought i should publish it for you guys to read, so here it comes...

(His P.O.V)

Letter one

"(Y/N), how can people say all that? How can my own fans - that i love - say that? Why can people do this to me? Even my parents - yes, even your parents (Y/N)! The boys too! They all say that i'm perfect, that i'm beautiful, that i'm the protective guy and the guy that look after all that i love. They all say i'm sweet, that i'm friendly and a hero.

Ho- i'm sorry (Y/N), i know the paper is wet (belive me, it's not my meaning to destroy the paper, you know that i hate to destroy things), but i can't listen to it any more, when i know it isn't true. You know that i always take compliments and say it back, but when i know it isn't true, how can i say thanks?! How can i say thanks for a lie?! If all they say is true, had you steel bean here! How can i be protective when i wasn't good enough to protect you?!?! How can i be a hero, when i didn't saves you?! I'm not a hero.

The tears is streaming out, (Y/N). All in me is pain right now... but maybe is it pain i need to feel right now. Pain. Why is it so hard for me (Y/N)?

What should i do? I'm sitting here 24/7, but you don't wake up. You don't open your eyes, and you aren't here to calm me down.

I need you - right now, more than ever. You havn't thought that you should sleep all the time, right? You wake up soon, right? Promise me you wake up (Y/N)! Open your eyes! Do it! Why can't you just do like i say? Give me that love i need right now.

I have never cryed so much before, (Y/N). We have stoped the tour, so i can be with you all the time. The boys wisit you every night, but you never say hi to them. You don't see they are here. You don't see i'm here. You don't see that we are here for you and take care of you while you sleep. It hurt so much now (Y/N). I drive my self deeper down in the sea, and i take every one with me.

Your parents was here with my parents. Have you heard it? Our parents sleep together at a hotel, so they can wisit you evere day. Do you know what that mean (Y/N)? It mean that they are not enemies any more. Do you understand what i mean baby? It mean we did it. We got them back together. All four. Do you listen. You got them to be friends again, are you happy? Are you happy at some time?

You sleep all the time. Why do you do it (Y/N)? Stop sleeping and wake up! Wake up now and tell me how you're doing and that you still love me, even through i wasn't hero enough to save you that time. You still love me, don't you? No, i can write about that. I have wet hands from all the times i cryed. It's not funny anymore, (Y/N).

I gave up, angel. I can't do this anymore. It's now four months since your car accident, and you still asleep. Why do you do this to me? Didn't you say that we would go through life together. You promised. But right now i'm doing everything alone, while your laying there and sleeping safely.

I got a tattoo. Do you know why i'm here again today? It's our four year anniversary. For both the boys and i, but also you and i. I've got four arrows: four for our anniversary, and four for the boys.

My mood was down, because management, the boys, our parents and even our fans think that i have spend to much time here. About five months, is that so much? They don't know anything. But yes, they kicked me out of the hospital. And then i should go on vacation, but i denied it. Never in my life i would leave London, when you are here. Luckey me, the boys accepted that, and because of that i have said 'yes' to the other things they want me to do. You do understand that i want to stay, right?

... I've been to meet'n'greet's, some concerts and me and the boys went out shopping. Our flat is been really nice with all the new stuff i've brought. I wish you could wake up and see it. You do wake up, right? It's so lonley without you. I miss you. I miss our time together. I don't call it 'home' any more. It was only a home when you where there with me.

I wish you home, (Y/N). Are you proud at me because what i have done? Even though people still say that i'm a hero, a good person and protective for my family and friends - and that i know they are lying - i still try to fight the pain.

I wrote this letter over a few months now. The truth- six months. You are still sleeping. Have you been noticed that i ahve been here every monday and thursday? My tears is still in my eyes six months after, and now, im just sitting and cry and write.

But now, now i have planed to say goodbye (Y/N). I only come and wisit you wednesday, and if any thinh happend the will call me.

The only thing i will pray for day and night is, that i'm the the only one there will feel the pain. I think is working, because i feels like the pain is much stronger than it was in last week. It is much more harder and it hurts more every night i spend in the flat.

I love you, miss you like crazy and i'm begging you to wake up next time i'm at the hospital. I'm sorry for the long letter, that i broke from all the tears. I'm crying all the time (Y/N).

I'm sorry for saying that i need you, but i don't care, i need you love. I need you support - i'm nothing without you, and every one know that. You can see it, just looking at me. I'm week without you... and i hate it.

Your Liam - who try to be the hero he isn't."