Bandaged (Yandere!DazaixReader)

Chapter 4: The Introduction to shinjū

It's been almost a month since you started working in ADA. You made more friends more than you imagined. And you has been included in many other cases as well just like how you wanted to help people and protect Yokohoma.

Dazai and you became more closer to each other. Most of the week during work days when it's break time he always invites you to have coffee with him. Spending more time with him the more you know who really is. You started to grow feelings for him. Dazai is still suicidal maniac, working in ADA you've seen enough of his suicidal attempts that thankfully it never success. 

You realized Dazai's is a grey character that what his showing to people is not the real him. His cheerful, prankster and carefree side is all lie or mask to put on. Sometimes when you look at him in the eyes there is no true happiness and you can see your old self to him. Once you asked him why does he wish to die he answered right away and not being hesitated  "Do you really think there's any value in the act of living"

*Present time, your at usual spot on the cafe with Dazai*

Readers Point of View

The trees are dancing outside as the gentle wind hits it, leaves are falling so as winter is coming "You haven't touch your coffee" Dazai said in a bored tone while playing the spoon. "Sorry i didn't noticed I'm gazing out again" and start drinking my coffee. "Ne y/n~ have you heard the lovers suicide?" He's still playing the spoon while looking bored. Hearing his words it made me stop from drinking my coffee "Lovers suicide?" I said while putting down my coffee cup to the table "yes, a lover suicide, shinjū a suicide pact between lovers in order to realize their love in a future life. I thought you already know it since you said you've been melancholy this past years and you tried to end your life by attempting to suicide " His soft brown eyes is now focused on me.

I'm speechless to what just Dazai said to me. I don't know what words to put. A lovers suicide? I never had a lover before. " Ohhh...i never knew there are things or rituals exist like that" Dazai's attention to me is now fully focus and watching my reaction. I turned my head to face the window before continuing to share my thoughts about this shinjū  "But i guess dying together with your lover is nice" i chuckled to my words feeling funny to what im saying. I never being loved back of my loved ones. So maybe having a lover that will stay by your side and ready to die with you is nice.

Another day well spent, as i walk through the streets of yokohama on my way home. I thought to myself what i am really to Dazai. As i go back to the times i spend with him. He's sweet and protective to me but he's like that to everyone. I really like Dazai ever since i met him he's the only person who understands and never judged for who i am and what's my past. As the light breeze blows my hair i tuck my hair behind my ears. I hope he feels the same way i do but it's okay if he doesn't like me back. Im happy to be by his side and help him to find his reason to live.

I lost to my thoughts when my eyes spotted the supermarket store and remembered i really don't have enough food stocks at home and necessary things i need so i decided to do some shopping before going home.

Since I'm thinking having a curry for my dinner tonight i walk through to the section of meats and vegetables to get the ingredients i need. When i turned around to put the vegetables to my cart  Dazai is standing there making me gasp to shock. "Another coincidence Y/n" he chuckles and walks closer to me and grab the other ingredients to my hand
"Why do we always run to each other, you're not stalking me right? ahahaha just kidding"  i said while putting the ingredients inside the cart. " stalking you? pffftt y/n this face? this handsome face do i really look like that to you? Ooh~ ever since you and Kunikida starts hanging out. You also now act and speak like him" He said in a tone of suffering  while putting his hand on his forehead. Dazai is overacting again i smiled and just shake my head sometimes i can't believe this man is suicidal or think he has a twin brother. The duality of Dazai Osamu huh. " hhaaai Dazai, Im having hotpot for dinner do you want to come in my house? I said while starting to push the cart and leaving Dazai behind "Eeh hontoo? Waitt for mee y/nnn"