Shameless imagines

Enough (CarlGallagher)

Requested by AllySpengler

⚠️TW⚠️ This imagine is about suicide so if this triggers you please don't read.

Imagine: You're dating Carl Gallagher and people at school have been bullying you to your face and over the internet. Eventually you can't take it anymore.

You wake up to your blaring alarm, you reach over and turn it off. You lay back down and stare at your ceiling for awhile not wanting to go to school and face another shitty day. You decide to get up and ready at 7:30. You throw on a pair of leggings and an oversized graphic t-shirt. Then you throw your y/h/c(your hair color) in a bun(or if you have short hair you just leave it down). You don't even bother with makeup because you're too tired and honestly don't care anymore.
You grab your bag and walk downstairs where you see your mom. " hey hun, come and eat with me before I got to work."
"No mom I'm not hungry and I'm gonna be late." You say trying to rush out of there before she becomes judge mental.
"Come on sweetie I can give you a ride." She says trying to get you to eat with her.
"No mom I'm good."
"Hunny, why don't you wear something nice and do something cute with your hair?" She says being judge mental like always.
"Mom, I'm good. Bye." You say rushing out the door not wanting to hear what else she has to say. You walk down to the bus stop where you run into your boyfriend, Carl Gallagher.
"Hey babygirl, don't you look good." He says smirking and putting his arm around you.
"Hey baby, how are you doing." You ask putting on a fake smile so he doesn't ask what's wrong.
"Better now that your here." He says kissing your forehead. You force a smile, the bus finally arrives and you and Carl get into a seat, you sit on the inside starring out the window. Your phone buzzes and you look at it.
You were tagged in a post
You go to look at it and see it was a picture of you next to a pig with a caption that says, spot the difference, bet you can't. Carl looks over and asks what you're looking at. You quickly turn it off and and tell him it's nothing. You finally get to the school where Carl walks you to your locker and then home room. He kisses your cheek and tells you he'll see you at lunch. You walk into the class and everyone shots like a pig laughing at you. You drop your head and go to the far back corner.
"Y/n!" Your ex best friend yells, you look up. "Wow you look like...your dad." You clutch your jaw knowing exactly where she was going with this, "you know, dead." She smiles and turns back around.
"You fucking evil bitch!" You yell.
"Y/n!" The teacher yells
"You know what no," you yell at the teacher. "I have been bullied for so long and no teacher gives two fucks, but when I try to stick up for myself I'm the one punished for it! This is bullshit! Your bullshit!" You yell not really giving a shit anymore.
"Y/n, office now." Your teacher says sternly. You roll your eyes and and grab your stuff. While grabbing your stuff your ex bsf turns around and says something.
"Why don't you just do is all a favor and do what your dad had the guts to do, kill yourself." She said never breaking eye contact. You rush out the class and to the office. They talk to you about cussing in class and then they called your mom. Your mom was lecturing you all the way home, but you just kept thinking about what y/ex/bsf/n (if you don't have one then make one up).
"Y/n, y/n, Y/N!" Your mom yells you quickly shoot your head towards her. "I have to leave for my trip so can you please stay out of trouble until I get back?" Your mom says while you guys walking into your house.
"Yeah, I mean what and I even supposed to do it's not like I can go to school." You said rolling your eyes.
"Please don't give me attitude and no boyfriend while I'm gone." She says in a tired voice. "I had a long day, so can you please just go upstairs for a minute, I'll come up and say goodbye." You nod and make your way up the stairs and to your room. You throw your stuff on the floor and flip on your bed. Your phone buzzes, it's Carl.
Baby😘:Where are you?
Baby😘: people said you got suspended?
Y/n: yeah I might have cussed out a teacher. Ha
Baby😘: lmao, why?
Y/n: I was tired of her bullshit honestly
Baby: okay well I'll come over after school. Love you 😘 🥰
Y/n: love you too ❤️
Your turn you phone off right when your mom walks in. "I'm leaving, so call you have any problems," she comes over and kisses your forehead, "and remember no boyfriend. Love you" she starts to walk away.
"Love you too" you say before she closes the door. Your hear you phone buzzing over and over.
People are commenting n a post you're tagged in
You open it up and see all the awful comments.
Becka29:Omg what a fat slut
Jordan69:No wonder her dad killed him self
Allison16:She should honestly just end it, bc soon enough Carl will realize what a fat bitch she is.
The comments started to bring tears to your eyes, maybe their right maybe you should end it. I mean if you weren't enough for your dad what makes you think you can be good enough for Carl. You waking unto the bathroom and start running a bath the. You open the medicine cabinet and grab a random bottle of pills. You put a handful of pills into your hand and then swallow most of them. You slow slip into the tub, still fully clothed.
You start to slowly fade away when you hear someone, "y/n?, y/n!" It was Carl, you wanted to yell for him so you could see him one last time, but you too tired. You hear the door being broke down and then you see and hear Carl, but then everything went black.
You wake up to a beeping, you open your eyes and see a bright, white room. You look over to your right and see Carl holding your hand. You then see your mom walking in with coffee, her face lights up when she sees that you're awake and she starts to yell for a doctor. This wakes up Carl and when his eyes met yours his face also lit up, but his eyes were saddened.
The doctor come in asked me some questions and so on. Once the doctors you loon at your mom and then Carl and back at your mom. She got the point and left. "Carl, I." He stopped you.
"No, why did you do it, I saw all the posts and comments on your phone, why didn't you just tell me? I would have killed someone." He says.
"I know, but I believed them. I believed that it I was not enough for anyone even you." You say not making eye contact.
He lifts up your head forcing you to make eye contact with him, "you will always be enough for me, even when we're old and just spend our time on our porch swing watching our grandchildren play in the yard." He smiles at you.
You laugh, "Carl Gallagher talking about the future, I'm shocked."
"I have and will always want a future with you"y/f/n (your full name). "And you will always be enough for me, fuck what those whores at school thinks bout you most of them have stds anyway. You both laugh together, "especially y/ex/bsf/n." This made you laugh harder. "Never try to leave me again." Carl says serious and upset.
"I, y/f/n solemnly swear to never try to leave you again." You smile a teacher and Carl places a soft, warm kiss onto your cold lips.
"I love you." Carl says pressing his forehead against yours.
"I love you too." You say with a big smile on your face.

Well, hello my shameless children sorry it's been two years, but someone requested this and I didn't want to disappoint them. Btw AllySpengler I hope you like this and sorry if the writing is bad it's been a minute since I wrote one of these. But maybe I might write more during quarantine and all😂. Anyway don't forget to like, comment, and share and if you have any requests leave in the comments or dm me. Thank you bye, love y'all
-Wayward2022