Change (Sammy Wilk Fanfiction)

Part 17

*AN: I dedicate this to Bieberftameezy_ because she's super active and so nice :) Go check out her story!
Thank you so much for 2k reads! I'm really sorry for not updating in a while but school kept me busy and I wasn't really creative. I hope I'll find time to write during holidays since I'll be skiing for two weeks. And since this is the last update before Christmas merry Christmas! I hope you have amazing holidays

It took me quite some time until I figured who that person was. And let's just say I wasn't to pleased. "Shit mum you scared me! Why are you already back?" I asked her. "Stop swearing honey! And it's nice to see you too! I don't have work for two weeks so I'll be at home for a while. Anyways why are you crying?" She asked back.

"Oh well.. that's good. I'm really tired so I'll just go to bed." I replied. Something was odd about her. Why is she nice to me? "Oh okay. I'll sleep now too but just come into my bedroom if you want to talk or need anything" She responded. Okay there was definitely something wrong.

"Mom what happened?" I asked her. "Is it that obvious that something's wrong?" She asked and I nodded. "Let's talk about this in the morning okay? You don't seem like you're in the mood for bad news." She said. "I can't sleep now! Mom I'm worried. What happened?" I shouted. "Fine. But don't say I didn't warn you. Sit down." I did what she told me to and waited for her to explain everything.

*after kaitlynn's mom explained everything*

"Mom you're kidding right?"

"I wish."

"Why?"

"It's complicated."

"But why are you giving up already? Isn't there still hope?"

"No I'm sorry."

"Weren't you always the one who told me to never give up and always work hard? Maybe you should follow your own advice this time."

I was really mad and sad at that point so I just ran upstairs into my room and smashed the door. I collapsed onto the floor and started crying. What a shit day. At first I loose my 'best friend' Rose and now this. Why does my life have to be so complicated? Why can't everything just be fine? Why can't everything be like the beginning of summer?

I always try to stay positive but it's so hard. What if tomorrow won't be better? What if life won't be easier? I always pretend that I'm okay when I'm really not. Maybe life just isn't for me. But I have to stick around and try to survive until I find out if life will get better.

I just hope that one day my smile will be real. I want to be happy. I want to say "I'm fine" and actually mean it. I just want to forget about all the stupid things that have happened to me and enjoy life.

I decided it was time for bed so I dragged my body into the bathroom to do my night routine and then I went to bed. What would I do without my comfortable bed? I feel like the only person I can trust is my bed. Her name is Beddie. I'm such a loner.

For real I have no friends. And whenever I think that I actually have a real friend they hurt me eventually. Since there were way to many thoughts in my head I need to listen to music and forget about everything for a while. I put my music on shuffle and guess which song came on.

LONELYYYYY

I AM SO LONELY

I HAVE NOBODY

TO CALL MY OWN

I'M SO LONELY I'M SO LONELY

I HAVE NOBODY

TO CALL MY OWN

I AM SO LONELY

Even my music thinks I'm lonely. Ugh I feel like I need a break from life. Maybe I'll go to my cousins beach house since he's not there. I mean it's not like I'm going to be missed. My dad doesn't care about me and my mom is to busy with herself. And my my friends all left me. I remember the beginning of summer. I know it was just a few days ago but everything has changed since then. Everything was perfect to me. I had Rose always by my side and I met Bryant and Sammy. I wish I could go back in time.

Speaking of Bryant I should probably talk to him again. Maybe we can do another photo shoot. I really enjoyed it. It was already 2 am so I decided to text him in the morning. I should just sleep now and forget about all the drama in my life. That would be amazing. Just a little bit later I drifted away into my dreamworld.

*AN: Sorry for the short and boring chapter I just felt like I needed to upload again. You'll find out what Kaitlynn's mom said in the next part!