Day Dream, english translation

Chapter 5 : The love that I have for you.

Quinn Pov,

Rachel, I thought the love I had for her would remain a secret. Since the beginning of my feelings, I thought that I could never share them with someone, and then Santana and Brittany forced me to invite her, without even knowing that it was her. And the night we spent, it was incredible. It was the first time I had relationships like this since Puck, even if Santana had offered me several times to joke but I suspected her to be serious the first times. The night I spent with her was the first time I was happy, the first time I was happy since ...Since my father came home, he said he was sorry, that he loved my mother like crazy. I knew it wasn't true, his mistress had surely dumped him and he wanted a woman. He always looked at me so coldly, he spoke to me to give me an order or when he needed something. Sometimes, when my mother was out, he asked me to come to his office, that's how he kept me terrified, if I ever had the error to answer him or even to do something that he didn't like ... He beat me up in his office and threatened to start again, hitting even more if I told my mother about it. I was a punching bag, I didn't tell my mother about it after threats from my father and I didn't dare confide in Santana. I was scared, I knew that if I were a couple with Rachel, he would kill me or hit me permanently, slap me for the slightest opportunity, beat me and even hit me until I was even more able to get up. And there, I don't know if the love I have for her will save me, I will think of her when I am in pain, think that it is for her that I endure all this. But I don't want to have to hide. What if he came to her house to hurt her, and if he hurt her? I will not forgive myself. The love I have for her and more powerful than anything. I let myself fall on my bed, burying my head in a cushion. Why did I complicate my life? Because I was Quinn Fabray, Ice Queen, the girl who got pregnant with her boyfriend's best friend. I was nothing, and I knew it. I tried in vain to fall asleep when I received a call, I picked up the phone without even paying attention to the person who called me, I immediately regretted having answered the call when Rachel's voice came out of the device.

Rachel : I guess you didn't look who called you ... If you're not ready to talk to me, you can hang up.

Quinn : No, I was trying to sleep, but I prefer to talk to you. I'm sorry for reacting like this. I was on edge.

Rachel : Oh Quinn, if you only knew how sorry I am ! I'm ready for anything for you ! I can come out tomorrow ! I can face Santana and singular combat if that's what you want !

Quinn (laughing on the phone) : No it's good Rach, I don't want my best friend to kill you when our relationship has just started ... But I would like to know how you would define the love that you have for me.

Rachel : Have you ever loved someone so much that you just want to lock yourself in your room and spend your days crying and watching romantic comedies while eating ice cream without anyone understanding what is happening to you ?

Quinn : Oh you have no idea...

Rachel : And that's how I love you. And you, how do you love me ?

Quinn : I give you my heart and my soul, thing's I'd never give to anybody before, and you want to know how I love you ?

Rachel : No, I have my answer.

Quinn : I love you Rachel. I love you more than anything in the world, I only want your happiness. And I know I'm not the easiest girl, but, please, trust me. I'm begging you, don't go back to Finn, because I know this moron would do anything to get you.

Rachel : Did you really think I was going to get back with him? Know that I am very touched that Quinn Fabray tells me that she loves me.

Quinn : One last thing before hanging up, if we couldn't make our relationship official in high school. I know it was me who wanted it at the start but I did not realize all the dangers that it could bring us. My father first, he'll kill me if he learns I'm going out with you.