MESSED | ATEEZ ✔

THIRTY-EIGHT

It's midnight already but I still can't sleep. After a dated with Wooyoung and the kisses. I feel more guilty towards him. I sat properly at the edge of my bed and put my palm on my face as I crying again.

Flashback

"Kiss me Seohyun, for the last time."

I grab Wooyoung face closer with me and touched his lips with me. It's so soft as he put his right hand at my back neck and trying to deepens the kiss. He biting my bottom lips to asked me to open my mouth to make his tounge explorers mine and without hesitated I giving him in.

He started a tongue battle with me and of course he win. He take over the kisses while he other hand slipped inside my shirt and rubbing soft at my side body. The touch he sending me a shivering all over my body and I already craving for it.

But believe me when someone told me, we can feel the others feeling through the kisses, I told you it was real. The kisses were soft but to sad. Sad that make me felt upset and bad. I crying while kissing him and he just brushing my cheek as he wiped my tears.

But I can't do this more as I broke the kisses and hug him tighter. I bawling on his shoulder and snuggle into his crooked as I can't hiding my feeling to him. He hugged me even more tighter and rubbing circle on my back. I know he was crying too because I can feel my shirt soaked with his tears.

"I'm sorry wooyoung, I'm so sorry."

I kept saying those sorry toward him, I just love him but I can't let myself to falling in love with him even more because I know I'll getting hurt for making Wooyoung and San hurt. That's why I hated myself much.

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I woke up after about 2 hours in sleep. It's 7 am now as I take my towel and going to bathroom to get a shower. After I finished my shower I going to my luggage and started to packing again because I going home today.

As I put all my things in my luggage suddenly Seonghwa getting inside my room. I looking to him with a sad eyes and he just smiling weak to me as he sat down beside me and take my other things to give it to me.

"Are you really want to go home, Sissy? I hope you will stay here longer." He said with his saddest voice.

"Yeah, I already booked the tickets. There's no refunding after we buying that." I mumbling while taking other things to my luggage.

"But— mom and dad still in China, you know. Just wait here untill they came back at least." He begging for me more. I just shaking my head.

"No, I'm not belong here and I make this for our own good, my own good. It's okay, you can visit me there if you want. Just come home oppa I'll wait for you." I grab his hand and tapping softly while give him a weak smile.

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Seonghwa take all my things out and going downstairs. I looking around at my room for the last time and letting out my sighed as I closes the door. As I looking in front I saw San's room and it's quiet. I motion my feet toward his room as I open up the door and stepping inside.

I take a deep inhales for short. His scent still lingering around the room even he not here for awhile. I miss his scent, I miss his face, his touch, his kiss, his voice and all. I miss him so bad.

I open my zip sling bag and pulled out a box; a small box. I buying him a ring as I appreciate him in my life. I'm not lying when I said he the most important person after my parents, seonghwa and yeonjun. He was my everything but I just ruined it. I put that box on his top desk and write some note.