Every moment is a fresh beginning

Prologue

What am I doing?
Why am I living?
What is the purpose of my existence?

I feel so empty, dark, opaque...

What is this feeling?

Why do I have so many unanswered questions?!?

Hi!

I'm Violet J Smith, half French and Australian.

Great mix right?!?

Well yeah, my dad is from France and my mom is from Australia. However, my dad lived most of his life in Australia, through college, work, marriage and I grew up there.

At a point of time we had to move to America, New York due to my dads work transfer in middle school and now I will be attending my first day of junior year tomorrow.

A few more years for me to figure out my life!

Great.

I am a singer, not famous or anything but one day hopefully yes. For starters, I have a band at school where I am lead vocalist. We are called the Music Dale for short MD, dale meaning valley since our town is kinda known for the valleys.

I play a bunch of instruments and I'm kinda a sports person. I'm also part of the school news paper club, called Wall Street journal.

I'm weird I know...

Sure, I might be depressed on the inside but my reputation in school isn't terrible. I may not be popular but I don't mind since I have a group of best friends and popularity doesn't really matter to me.

We all met in the beginning of middle school when I moved here. There is Riley, Emma, Jayden, Liam and me.

Can you tell that I'm a 5th wheeler?

That's a question I ask myself everyday but hey, I love them and I would do literally anything in the world for them!

That's my life in a couple of words...oh wait I forgot about my siblings.

Typical me.

I have a twin brother, named Jacob. He's 5'8, with curly soft light brown hair at the top and blueish grayish eyes. He has abs but he's you're skinny muscular type of guy.

He is very into fighting, thinking he is some hulk or whatever.

He's basically part of the popular group in school so he's your typical ideal man. Oh don't worry I'm not the total opposite depressed control freak on crack.

I am 5'6, with light brown slightly curly hair at the bottom and blueish greenish eyes. As you can see I look a lot like my twin brother.

Shocker.

I also have a little sister Julia who I love with all my heart! She's the closest person to me and she really understands my depressed ass even though she's a 7 year old cute little girl who's not that normal...

Unfortunately, she is diagnosed with a kidney disease... CKD - chronic kidney disease. It's a condition characterized by a gradual loss of a kidney function over time.

She wears these thin tubes around her mouth and nose to help her with her condition, but hey angels come in different forms!

That's what I tell myself when I ask yet another question...

How is an amazing brilliant person soo little and hurt?

I would take her place any day because she definitely does not deserve this. She appreciates life so much unlike some people ahem *me* ahem.

Why do the people who actually understand life have a harder road through it?

Why do the people who have so much to give are the most hurt?

So, Julie (Julia) might be like this for a long time meaning her life might be on the verge of death...

Death.

I can't handle that word...

It bring so much extra pain to me since this past summer.

Hope you liked this, I'll be posting chapters soon so stick around. Pls vote n comment I really appreciate it🥺😄😊