FAMILY | on hold

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hey everyone...

it's been so long since i've been on here like it feels like it's been centuries omg..

anyway.... so ummm i really don't know how to say this and i was praying it wouldn't come to this but i think i'm going to be putting this book on hold...i don't know for how long but i've lost inspiration and motivation completely hence why i haven't updated in over a month...

dont get me wrong i absolutely loved writing this book and it holds a very special place in my heart because it means a lot to me but lately it's just been really hard for me to put in the effort to write it.. it genuinely hurts me because i was so passionate about this book and i have everything planned out but my motivation went to zero and plateaued after the last update. i was so sure that i was going to complete this before june because there's literally like 4 or 5 chapters left and i have no social life but sh*t happened and now im just....feeling hopeless lol

writing is literally the only thing i look forward to.i've been writing stories since i was 10 or something and it makes me so so so happy u have no idea. im 21 now and even with sh*t changing all the time, my love for writing stories never dies. my motivation comes and goes but i still love writing. im scared that one day i'll lose that love for good because nothing in life is guaranteed..nothing is forever.....

it just sucks when u lose motivation for a story that u were so f*cking passionate about..it sucks when u lose so much motivation in general that u start doubting urself and wonder if u were really passionate about something. i honestly cant begin to express my frustration because this happens so often and i really really hate it . i dont know why it happens but i wish i knew because then i'd be able to do something to stop it from happening. this isn't the first book i've had to stop abruptly and unfortunately it might not be the last

with that being said i am NOT going to give up on this book. it means too much to me for me to just throw it away. im going to spend some time reviewing each chapter and i think im going to start editing it now and apply the changes that i spoke about in last chapter's end notes.. i hope it'll help me boost my motivation..
at this point i'll do whatever it takes if it means i can complete this. i spent so much time and effort on this and i really dont want it to go to waste. of course if i do make any changes then i will let everyone know. it could be days or weeks or even months but i want to accomplish something in life so i will make it my goal to finish this book before the end of this year ajdksjdf

i hope i didnt disappoint anyone too much and i also hope that u are willing to wait. if you aren't then i understand completely and i won't be mad or upset
if u want to know what happens after chapter 40 then i'm happy to reveal the following events and the ending through private message to avoid spoiling the rest of the story for those who dont want to know just yet..
just let me know in the comments or message me if u want the spoilers :))

hmmm that's all i have to say about this for now but i guess from now on i'll only write short stories and one-shots because i have bad luck with lengthy stories.. speaking of, i'll try my best to complete the final part of body heat because i know a lot of people have been anticipating it and i ghosted that book for months without saying a word omg...i'm truly sorry about that and i'm really sorry about what's happening with this book too

i honestly feel like a complete mess rn lmaofjkgd

on a serious note i really hope no one is going through anything remotely similar to what i'm experiencing because it really screws u over istg.. but if u are then i hope u get through this. it's not easy but it won't last forever. we just have to keep fighting by facing our problems instead of running away from them so that we can get rid of them for good. if we fight then we can defeat it for once and for all but if we run away then it's going to catch up to us someday.
take a break if u need to but when you're ready, GET BACK ON THE BATTLEFIELD AND KEEP FIGHTING!!! WE MUST DEFEAT THIS EVIL NO MATTER WHAT!!!!!!! DON'T LET THE ENEMY WIN!!!!
none of us are quitters okay?

and in some cases we have to withdraw from battle but that doesn't make u a quitter. for example if you're doing something that brings more distress than joy, then the best option is to stop.

well that's it. thank u so much to those who checked up on me and thank u so much to everyone for being so patient and supportive. i really appreciate it

i will try my best to get back to everyone tomorrow

stay safe and take care of yourselves!! i love u all heaps ❤️❤️❤️