The New Boy

End It Now

*This chapter contains a sensitive theme that some readers may find upsetting.*

I get out into the cold air and the tears are well and truly flowing now. I must look a mess, my mascara has travelled half way down my cheeks and my eyes are all red and puffy.

I said before I had never felt so alone, but now it's like the definition of loneliness is me. Even my sister has betrayed me, I can't believe Brad would do that. Fair enough I guess he would be moving on but with Tessa? Really? When I saw them in his room it felt like a thousand shards of glass were thrusted into my body, I couldn't breathe.

I decided to call Megen because I could really use a 'friend' now.

Within seconds she answers.

"What do you want?" She says, harshly.

"Look Megen I could really use a frie-"

"A friend? Well your looking in the wrong place honey."

"Megen please."

"No Megs, what you said about all of us really hurt me, and you need to be taught a lesson, good bye."

And she hung up. Hung up on years of friendship. I couldn't believe it.

I finally got home and my Mum still wasn't back so I guessed she was staying the night at her friends. I paced around as the tears still flowed down my cheeks, I couldn't stop shaking.

I decided to call the only friend I had left, Beth, maybe she will talk to me.

I clicked on her number in my phone and it began to ring. It had been about a minute and she still hadn't answered, it felt like she was purposely trying to ignore me. I truly had no one. No one wanted me, no one cared, I didn't mean anything to anybody.

I made my way upstairs into the bathroom and I opened the cupboard where we kept all the pills and I stared blankly as the thoughts that haunt me danced around in my head.

Nobody loves you

Nobody needs you

You're worthless

Just slip away quietly

No one will care

No one will notice

Just end the pain

End it now

My shaking hand reached out and grabbed the bottle closest to me.

I slowly twisted the cap and I was certain of what I was going to do next.

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I don't really know what to say.

On another note guys Wattpad isn't letting me see my notifications :( anyone know how to fix that?

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