In This World: Beyond Time

Chapter 6: Not where but when

IN THIS WORLD

6. Not Where But When (Part 2)

Soundtrack:
Alice by Avril Lavigne

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Once upon a time, I'm still that Crystal, a girl who's living her life to the fullest ㅡ with her loving family, friends and boyfriend. But, as the time goes by that Crystal realizes how those relationships are easily broken.

Regrets are only for those people who does not have a life to live. I lived with that saying which is why I always try to enjoy and live my life.

But, right now, I realize regrets should not be held accountable for failing to live, we, humans should be the one. Tayo ang gumagawa ng choices natin sa buhay, regrets is just an emotion we feel. Ang sarili natin ang dahilan kung bakit nabigo tayo mamuhay sa kagustuhan natin.

Kagaya ko. Bigo nanaman. I lost people who're important to me tonight.

"Crys...what happened?" Blast gave me a worried look

"Nothing...just please drive me home..."

Mukhang hindi siya convinced sa sinabi ko ngunit sinunod niya parin ito at hindi na nagtanong pa. Nagdrive lamang siya nang tahimik habang sumusulyap-sulyap saakin. I arched my head to face the window and burst into tears...silently.

Bigla naman huminto ang sasakyan, maybe he heard me weeping.

I lost my bestfriend, and my boyfriend...will I lose him and Chyra, too?

"I'm sorry,"

"Sorry, Crys..."

"Why...why are you?" I glanced to look at him, mugto ang mata.

"You probably saw them together, didn't you?"

I sarcastically smirked, realizing what he meant, "So, you...you knew they were there...you knew all along," a hint of annoyance is visible in my voice. "Since when?"

"Noong gabing pumunta tayo sa kagubatan, I saw them..." he paused.

"...they're making a fool out of you, Crystal."

"And, you let them fool me!" I didn't mean to raised my voice, I was just frustrated and hurt.

"Natakot ako, sorry, ang gago ko dahil wala akong lakas ng loob sabihin sayo...it was...it was because..."

"Because of what?" my voice cracked habang patuloy parin ang pagtulo ng luha ko.

"I know how important they are to you, I can't afford to see you get hurt," Nabigla naman ako sa sinabi niya. "I'm sorry..."

"I like you, Crystal. Matagal na and it pains me to see you hurting." He gave me a worried look at pinunasan ang luha ko.

Napa-awang lang ang labi ko ㅡ I couldn't utter a damn word. Na-estatwa lang ako sa pwesto ko habang prinoproseso ang mga sinabi niya. He likes me, matagal na raw. But, he's my friend. And, the last thing I want to hear right now is a confession...from a friend.

I was taken a back nang ma-realize kong ang lapit na ng mukha nito saakin. Agad kong nilayo ang mukha ko sakaniya at malalim na huminga.

Ito na ba ang karma ko? Siguro nga kinakarma na ako sa lahat ng masamang nagawa ko. I just found out my boyfriend was cheating on me at sa matalik ko pang kaibigan. And, Blast...for sure, we'll drift apart.