Infinite Lists my crush

I can't do this anymore

( A/N: I'm going to start using quotation marks when someone speaks. I wont go back and edit the other 59 chapters because I'm to lazy.)

**** 3rd p.o.v

Okalynn wanted to leave for a bit. Not filming season fifteen. Going to end fifteen in a couple months and the last 7 episodes. She was having a mental fight with herself right now. Okalynn packed bags and started to leave before her young children stopped her. " Mommy where are you going?" They say in unison I'm leaving. Telling her six almost seven year olds, her four year old, almost three year old, and One almost two year olds. Her seven kids got sad. She bent down. She whispered to the two oldest. Which where Arianna and Brianna.

" Tell daddy that mommy left. She is going to be for a couple days or weeks." She says. She hugged all of them and kiss them then left. She got keys to the mazed eclipse and drove out of the driveway. The silent sound was dreading so she turned on some music. Okalynn let tears shed from her greenish blue eyes. Okalynn just wanted to be normal. Not be different because she was famous. Not that she didn't love her life, she loved her husband and her seven children to death. But being twenty- two and have seven kids is very tiring and she wanted alone time. She forgot what personal space was when she had her first set of twins. Now two babies one year apart and set of triplets makes it harder. I never wanted to be despised. Now that her and Caylus were married that settled her down a bit. It made her depression go away. Temporarily. Once she got pregnant with twins in 2018 then they died. In the womb. That same year she got pregnant with triplet girls. Aphrodite being the only boy in the group of girls they had. Okalynn didn't want to leave she wanted to stay. Okalynn hated herself for any pain her family was in. She hated every single part of her. She didn't know why. As they plane flew into the air to go to Wyoming. While at home was a different story. Here is how it went.

Meanwhile at home still 3rd person

Caylus walked down stairs. " Do you know where mommy is?" He asked his little kids.

" She left. She need a break for a couple days or weeks." Arianna and Brianna said. Caylus licked his lips in announce.

" Go to uncle Jared or Jensen's house and stay there untill I say you can come back.

" Okay daddy." They say and walk off. Three kids going to Jensen's and four kids going to Jared's. Caylus instantly called Okalynn. He was very upset.

" Come on pick up."  Caylus said impatiently. When she picked up Caylus boomed. " WHERE ARE YOU!" Caylus said touchy.

" Ba...babe I want alone time I can't do it." She stuttered. Caylus had started to sob.

" I...kn...know...but why do you have to leave us? HUH!?" Caylus said. Then he herd her hang up. "  SON OF A GUN." He yelled an threw his phone against the wall. He swept everything of the kitchen counter it shattered. He saw Jensen and Jared come and run into the house. To see him covered in blood. His hands had cuts on them and he had shards in his feet. Jared got his feet and hands. While Jensen cleaned up the mess. Then in unison they both pulled him onto his feet. They bear hugged him. Caylus started sobbing. Caylus hadn't sob nor cried since his eldest daughters were born. That was almost seven years ago. It still hurts she left me. He thought. Not like a divorce but just for a little bit. Turns out a month later she still wasn't back and it was crippling him. She wouldn't pick up phone calls. One night Caylus curled up into a ball and sobbed for hours. He didn't sleep. Only about thirty minutes each day. Which was only three hours and thirty minutes each week. Then came the not eating. Okalynn was suffering. Once Jensen and Jared checked on him. He was passed out. Okalynn had just come back. Knowing she was devesastated. She saw Caylus. And Jared and Jensen were mad.

" Why did you have to leave?!?." They scolded her. Which made har shrink into herself.

" I was scared. Me and him had a fight. I couldn't stand it anymore. I just needed a break. A. Break from. Me and my ugly body. Me and my ugly face. My depression and stuff. I hate myself. No matter how hard I try." Okalynn said to them

" But does that mean you should leave?" They whisper gently

"  No." She whispers even more gently.