Infinite Lists my crush

They said

So what have the boys said to you. A fan asked

Witch ones. I ask

The ones you work with. She said

Witch ones. I asked again

Supernatural. She said. They look at me with these big smiles and goofy eyes.

I can't they're right next to me. I say

Just pretend like were not here. Jensen says back intensively staring at me.

So at first they made me try out. It went like this. I knew the cast of spn before I got on the show. It kinda went like this. I go to a Dean voice. Try out they said. It'll be fun. It'll be worth it they said. It won't be traumatizing they said. We won't mess with you they said. We won't try to make you brake everytime during your close up they said. I say. The crowd laughs a lot.

Wow that was a very accurate Dean voice for a women there babe. Caylus said and kissed me.

Ew. Stop kissing. Jared whined.

Okay. We say and give each other a kiss.

What is one time when you need inspiration to keep going and cope with something. A fan asked

Umm. My voice cracks. My voice goes deep. " Once When I was sixteen, me and my two friends were umm. Watching a movie. My friend Elizabeth went to the restroom and overdosed on pills. We kicked the door down. I held her in my arms. I remember just looking at the foam coming out of her mouth and her making choking noises. I was saying. Don't go, we still need you here to get us through tough times. Please? She died in my arms. I held her close and screamed over and over Elizabeth. I would scream if they tried to rip me away from the body. My brother Tal picked me up while I was fighting his grip. Then I gave up and fell into his arm and sobbed. It still hurts seven years later. She was the sunshine in my life. Then the light in my eyes started to fade day by day then at her ceremony the light in my eyes faded. You can still see I have empty dull pained eyes." I finish off fighting the tears but I couldn't tears were flowing down my face rapidly. I hug onto Jensen, Caylus left to do photo ops. The crowd awed. It hurts knowing your friend died in your arms. I say... It hurts even more when you know the main score of their pain. I say. Jensen put me in his lap and my face is in his shoulder. I'm crying badly. He slowly rubs circles on my back. I whisper in his ear " Jay it hurt to say. It hurts to think about it. I see it in my dreams every once in a while. It hurts to say or do or think anything about it." I whisper. Jensen got up and put me on his hip. I smile through the sadness. I smile to let them know I'm not weak. I chuckle.

Hey want to know what. Last night I chocked on a piece of chicken.  Jensen said.

Jay! I exclaim. I put the microphone to his ear and say it " secretively". It was as secret you said not to tell anybody. I say and everybody laugh. We brought up Destiel. Ahem. I say teasing them