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Miscarriage and dealing with filming

I get to go home for a couple days. I don't have to film. I'm excited about that. I'm going to surprise them. When me and Caylus get to LA we call a cab. We get into it and go home. Traffic sucks. I say. It took us 1 hour to go nine miles. We still have an hour drive home. We were stuck in traffic for three hours. We put our stuff up. When the kids got here we are in the living room.

Mommy Daddy. The say happy.

Hi. We say. Want to know something. I say

Yes mommy. They say

Well mommy and daddy have been think you guys need more siblings. Mommy is pregnant with twin girls. I say. We put up Aphrodite and October to sleep.

Yay. They yell. Boys, girls or both? They ask

Sorry baby girls and boy but twin girls. But, we had a miscarriage. I say holding back tears.

What does that mean. They ask

We lost the babies. Caylus said. Sadness showing on his face.

What no that can't be. Arianna and Brianna said in unison. Throwing whatever they had their hands on the ground. They run/stomp to their room. The thing that they threw on the ground shattered and they stepped in it. Making a bloody trail up the stairs. We clean it up we talk to them.

Two weeks later.

We leave to go back to Vancouver. We still have to tell they boys about the miscarriage. They will be sad.

Hi. I tell they boys as I get in Misha's trailer where we normally meet.

Hi. They say. JJ and West and Maison and Thomas are in here.

We need to have a conversation. I say

Go play. They tell their kids. Talk about what. They say

So you know I've been really sad and depressed lately. I say Caylus rubbing my shoulder

Yeah, more so than usual. I know you have depression and its hard. Jensen says.

Did something happen. Jared, Jensen, and Misha asked panicking

Yes. I say tears running down my face.

What happened? The asked.

Miscarriage. I mumble so quickly

What. They ask

I had a miscarriage and lost the babies. I sob out. They froze.

Excuse me. WHAT! Say it again  didn't quite hear that. Jensen said not believing me.

I had a miscarriage and lost the babies. I yell crying

So, we lost our " nieces". They say

Yes, you did. I say crying. Babe. I say jumping on Caylus holding him close. We have to film. I say. I get make up done. We go to film.

Nova: Sam why?

Sam: You are stupid

Nova. I'm leaving

Cut. They detector yells. Okalynn for the last time get it right or you get kicked off set and have a doppelganger take your place. He says sternly. Jensen and Jared and Misha and Caylus and Me had had enough.

STOP YELLING AT HER! SHE JUST HAD A MISCARRIAGE AND LOST HER BABIES. SO WHY DON'T YOU THINK TWICE ABOUT YELLING AT HER, BEFORE I COME OVER THERE AND MESS YOUR STUFF UP. WHAT WOULD YOU THINK IF YOUR WIFE HAD A MISCARRIAGE YOU WOULD BE SAD. WOULDN'T YOU. SO STOP YELLING BEFORE I TEAR YOU TO SHREDS AND BURN YOU IN A FIRE! We yells at the detector.

ALL OF Y'ALL OFF SET! STUNT DOUBLES WILL TAKE YOU PLACE! They director yells

BURN! I yell the boys restrain me from him getting these hands. Caylus had to pick me up because I wouldn't move. When we got back to my trailer they left. I stayed there for a while. I go out in anger. I feel someone put their hand on my shoulder. I slap it away. Kinda harshly. Get away from me. I say. I go to the tent with food. I get a small stake, two spoon fulls of vegetables and a beer. I eat. I drink. It was my fault. I think

Hey, Oak ( a nickname). Jensen said looking at my three bottles of beer gone. I get another already drunk. I stand up and get some shots. Now I'm definitely drunk.

Jensen's p.o.v

Okalynn is drunk. Hey, stop. I say to her. She goes back to her cabin and wakes up with a hangover the next day..

Okalynn's p.o.v

We go to film. I put my headache aside and don't mind it.

Rhett: Hey where's my big sister?

Dean: I don't know

Sam: she was here last night

Nova: Hey, guys ( eyes red and puffy)

Dean: Are you drunk

Nova: No. You stupid?

Dean: What happened you are sad

Nova: Well try losing a friend you had since childhood. Them selling their soul for you. Then them beating you up

The boys: ( say it super over protective) Who beat you

Nova: None of ya beeswax ( walk to your room)

Scene one act one done

Scene two act two. Stage detection ( You're in the impala listening to music. Nova wont talk or eat or make a pit stop. She has been doing this for two days. Dean and Sam and Rhett are concerned. You guys are still hours away from your destination. Getting tensions from not talking. So awkward that you can " cut the wind" with a knife. This goes on untill you get thirty minutes from you destination. Then all of a sudden you hear a loud scream from the back of the impala. [[[ Okalynn pretend to be asleep. Your head is going to be on Caylus's lap. In this case Rhett's lap.]]] You guys freak out and try to wake up Nova. You do but she is sweating and scared.)

Dean: Nova wake up

Rhett: Nova

Sam: Cone on Nova

Nova: ( bolts up in fear sweating like crazy. Cry.)

Dean: ( pulls to the side if the road and tells Rhett to drive while trying to calm down Nova) Its okay.

Nova: I just. I just. Its okay.